I feel the need to post cuz I'm not sure what to think right now. Yesterday was my birthday and I was trying to make peace with the possibility that X would just "blow it off" and ignore it when I didn't get a call before I left for work at 9:00am. He works 3rd shift and is done with work at 7:00am. I had to keep telling myself all day that I was not going to let Xs actions ruin my BD and OP called me to wish me a Happy Birthday at time he knew I would be getting up to get kids ready for school and Mom called too before I left for work.
Then about 3:30p X called at work to wish me a HB and tell me I was going to like my gift (last year X left message on answering machine wishing me HB-no gift or even mention of one) I said "you don't need to do that" and he said "the kids are doing it all and you are really going to like it". I said Thank You several times and he said he would have kids call and tell me G/N before they went to bed. I started crying HAPPY tears cuz he did acknowledge it after all. "Friend" took me to dinner so I took cell phone in case they tried to call at home and I wasn't there. X knows they can call on cell if I don't answer home phone.
I got home about 10:45p and there was no call from them on home phone and no call on cell while I was gone. I was very upset and had been drinking, but I resisted temptation to call. I had all these "dark" thoughts about X didn't have them call cuz X had "friend" over at his place and were having too much fun to think of me. I don't know if X had friend over or not but he did call this morning about 10:30a to have kids tell me HB and talk to me. When DD told me HB, instead of being elated (I did say Thank You) I did say but BD was yeserday. I heard X in background say that he fell asleep (I think it was he way of saying "my bad" for kids not calling yesterday) and she was telling me about what her and brother were doing yesterday. I then talked to DS then he was done X got back on phone and chatted for a few more minutes and even filled me in on what they are going to do today.
I know I should not make more of it than what it is but I just don't understand. X still doesn't contact me much unless it has to do with kids, but this BD thing has me confused. Is this a baby step or am I just making mountain out of a molehill because of my BD?
There is so much more I need to tell but I have to get ready for work now. I'll post more later.
Maria
------------- We cannot solve the problems we face at the level of thinking that got us into them in the first place. Albert Einstein
