OH man HOPE!! I am so sorry!! Not to come to his defense at all, because what he did is uncalled for...but do you think maybe this is his way of dealing with the loss of you? For him, maybe its easier to get mad, be mean..that way he doenst have to feel as guilty? Men are so dumb that way...why not just say, "this is hard for me to", but instead they dont like to show their true feelings....
Anyways...here's a big hug from far away....(((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUG)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Quote: I went out Saturday night and saw a friend.
Why would this drive him so crazy? What gender is your friend? You've gone out before and it didn't matter to him, what sparked it this time? Seems odd behavior for a guy who doesn't care.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Quote: D11 has been more cuddly but other than that they seem okay
Mine are the same way. I seem to never have any "me time" anymore. They are so clingy. They won't go up to their rooms and play or anything anymore. In the last couple days I have noticed they are starting to get back to their old selves. I hope this is a good sign for them accepting also. Your D11 needs to feel close and being such a good mother that you are I know she will get what she needs from you.
Quote: XH has completely lost his mind. I went out Saturday night and saw a friend. I got home and XH went crazy. Accusing me of all kinds of things and throwing things. We got in to it again yesterday.
This I do not understand. If he wants out then why get upset? Is this the typical I don't want to be with you but I dont want you to have fun either? Men are strange.
Quote: He’s starting to get physical with me. He grabbed my arm really hard. I told him if he ever touched me again, I would call the cops on him. I will not put up with that from him.
Good for you, no one should have to put up with this kind of abuse.
Sorry you didn't have a great weekend. Hang in there and don't give up on yourself. Don't let him pressure you into anything. Him being gone will be good for you and daughters.
I am sorry things have gotten so bad. I don't blame you for not wanting to be near him. You are doing a great job with your D. You are a great mom from what I can tell and I know you are doing what is best for her.
Not much to report. XH went out last night so I had a nice evening to myself. I was wonderful. He leaves this afternoon for California and won't be back until sometime on Thursday. Two more quiet nights to myself!
He's sleeping on the couch now. I don't mind one single bit. I forgot how much I enjoy having the whole bed to myself. Never in a million years did I think that I would go from loving him so much to counting down the days until he's 3000 miles away. But he's done this to himself. This is what he wants. I'm just glad the roller coaster ride is almost finally over for me. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, it just wasn't exactly the one I expected to see.
Thursday - dinner with family (the big 30 is Friday!) Friday - Harry Potter movie with the kids and some friends Saturday - birthday party Sunday - Pre-Thanksgiving dinner with my friends
And that's just as of today...I'm so loving this. Doing things, having fun. ENJOYING LIFE AGAIN!
And guess what? I showed the house last night! First people to look and I've only had it posted on a few free sites since Sunday! They liked it and I think are interested but they have to get their house sold first. But it's a start.
Y'all I'm on top of the world today. I haven't felt this good in so long! I love it!
Good for you Hope! I'm glad to hear that you are enjoying life and making plans!
Congrats on the 1st showing of the house! Good luck!
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
You go girl! Its so good to hear you are getting on with your life and doing things for YOU now!! Keep it up! Hope you had and continue having a wonderful week! -2much
