Sitch m12yrs, 3 kids, me38, H 38 2yrs ago OW. It's been a bumpy ride and he won't go to counseling anymore but I still can't deal. He has never said he is sorry, never. He calims our M was already over. I am still stinging from the fact that he did this and isn't remorseful. I don't expect him to pay for it the rest of his life, but damn! I have said this to him on serveral occasions, but no go. I can't let it go. Em
You didn't say but I am assuming you are still with H. If so, you have to let it go to save your marriage. He will never say he's sorry, because he isn't. Plain and simple. He did what he wanted for himself. He wasn't even thinking of you, and maybe still isn't. If you and H are not together, let it go for your sake. You still have to live and try to enjoy life. It is hard and sometimes even seems impossible, but it has to be done. You can't live in the past. Look to the future and it will get a little easier if you get your mind on other things. If you can't get over this there is no hope. Do it for yourself, don't waste anymore time, we are all here for only a short time. Don't waste your life on something you can't change. It happened and no matter how much we wish it hadn't, it did. It has happened to a lot of us and we just have to make the best of what the good lord has given us. Start by looking at all the blessings you do have in your life and go from there. I have found writting in a journal every day, no matter what I feel or think, it all goes in there. From mental death wishes to watching leaves change color. Sounds stupid but it has worked for me. It makes me think of something besides H and OW. I am ready to start looking forward and not backward. You miss out on so much that is happening NOW when all you concentrate on is past hurts. So don't expect an apology. You will never get it. They never feel like they've done wrong, it was our fault in their eyes. So according to them, we got what we deserve. But did we? Maybe when a door closes in our face a window of adventure opens. Good Luck and keep posting.
