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Last night my husband had a long talk with a christian friend of ours that started a conversation with us in the bed. He suddenly asked my why I stay with him. I told him it's because I love him and want to be there for him. He went on to explain that he used to want me to be more affectionate and loving towards him and for so many years I had blocked him out (which I must admit I did). Now that he is home, he says that I am everything he has always wanted but for some reason he does not feel the same. He has told me this before, however, he always sends me little love text pages professing his love and thanking me for supporting him. He finally broke down and admitted his depression that he has had for some years rooted from his childhood through our marriage. I told him that I will always be there for him through what he is going through however, I need some confirmation as to where I stand. I have been very loving and affectionate and don't want to smother him. He says that he loves the attention but sometimes feels smothered. I took that as my cue to find a balance. I ended up crying over thoughts that his inability to love me might be linked to feelings that he has for the OW, however, he firmly states it is over and there are no feelings. With the mixed emotions from one day to the next, I don't know what to do.
This morning before I left for work, we talked again and he really opened up to me in a way like never before. Even though the conversation started with my request for an answer on why he came home, it ended with my stroking him after he explained his depression. The time came for me to leave and I told him that I could not leave him that way and I'd take a vacation day. He said no, and as I tried to console him he said GO - GO - JUST GO!!! It really hurt, but I understood that he needed to be alone.
When I get home, I don't know what to do. I guess I can't lay under him like I usually do, we are supposed to go out tonight but I do not know what he is going to want to do now. Please - any advise would be greatly appreciated. I sent him a text page and told him that I love him and understand why he needed me to leave this morning. I did not get a response but did not expect one. I hope that he seeks help for his depression, I want to help him because I think that is why we can't put our marriage back together.
