Hi all-- Just seeing if anyone was around...needin' to "talk" to someone. Rough father's day. Actually, it started okay. W, kids and I went to mass. W got me gifts...which I didn't expect. Then, she took me and kids to brunch. I'm not sure how she did it on her limited income...but, I was appreciative. NOW, on the way to mass, I was driving her car...and noticed a clip for a garage door opener on her visor. I thought it was the electronic gate key for her apartment...so I pulled down the visor to comment on how high-tech the place had gotten since we lived there 5 years ago. Low and behold, it WAS a garage door opener! She couldn't think fast enough to come up with an explanation...so she just changed the subject--sort of--she found the actual electronic gate key to show me how high-tech it was . Then, she started talking about the speed bumps and other improvements since we've lived there, etc. Never again to mention the opener. SO, I'm left tonight obsessing over that. So, I'm thinking it's definitely an OM...and only 2-1/2 weeks into our official separation--she has his garage door opener. Is she really living at the apt. I mean I know she has one--I've seen it--her stuff is there. BUT, what else would she have a garage door opener for? She wasn't eager to tell me. Again, it confirms what I've thought all along--she is leaving me for someone else...and that hurts like HELL! I guess I was just in la-la land (yes, I know you tried to warn me csw and NOPkins). Anyway--my crazy-maker is in over-drive tonight. I barely got the kids to bed before I finally lost it. I've been roaming the house looking at all the places that were hers and that are now empty. I never expected to be here--in this position--I'm hurting like it's all fresh and new. It's really funny but most of last week I was feeling pretty good--I was actually relieved (to a degree) that she wasn't around because I could do things that I wanted (sort of).
Sorry for the ramblings. I'm just tired and sad...and pathetic I guess. I want to call her and demand an explanation. Of course, she's probably at his house right now...but I'd never know b/c she didn't hook-up a phone line...she's just using her cell. She's pretty sneaky in that dept. In college, she would sleep at her b/f and when her mom would call...the roommate would say she's in the shower down the hall...and call W. Who would rush from b/f to call her mother. We used to laugh about how conniving she was--now that she's using it on me--it's not so funny!
Okay...sorry again. I'm going to read my bible and pray...then, maybe I can turn off the crazy maker and go to sleep.
Take care all-- K
Oh yeah--one last thing. We are all going to DisneyWorld as a family on Wednesday! YEAH! It was something that we've been promising our kids for two years...so, we couldn't drop a bomb like "we're separating" and then, not take them. Honestly, I think missing DW would have been more devastating to them!
KEBall, Maybe I am too blunt. I would have asked (not accused)
Looks like a garage door opener, Who ownes the garage?
If you guys are seperated and can't be honest (stay away fron negative displays) how are you going to get to the solutions, what ever they might be, D or getting back together? The egg shels are already cracked and broken.
I am kind of a direct person. My advice might not be right for you. I tried the " lets not break the broken egg shells into smaller pieces" things. Lots of work for nothing sometimes.
Quote: maybe I can turn off the crazy maker and go to sleep.
The rollercoaster goes up and down many times before it stops, and it can be a long ride. Sorry to hear you so stressed.
. Then, she started talking about the speed bumps and other improvements since we've lived there, etc. Never again to mention the opener. SO, I'm left tonight obsessing over that. So, I'm thinking it's definitely an OM...and only 2-1/2 weeks into our official separation--she has his garage door opener. Is she really living at the apt. I mean I know she has one--I've seen it--her stuff is there. BUT, what else would she have a garage door opener for? She wasn't eager to tell me. Again, it confirms what I've thought all along--she is leaving me for someone else...and that hurts like HELL! I guess I was just in la-la land (yes, I know you tried to warn me csw and NOPkins). Anyway--my crazy-maker is in over-drive tonight. I barely got the kids to bed before I finally lost it. I've been roaming the house looking at all the places that were hers and that are now empty. I never expected to be here--in this position--I'm hurting like it's all fresh and new. It's really funny but most of last week I was feeling pretty good--I was actually relieved (to a degree) that she wasn't around because I could do things that I wanted (sort of).