I agree. It doesn't have to be a big "sit down we need to talk" talk. Maybe just a "gosh I'd love to have a little boy who looks just like you" or " A little girl of our own would be so special" Nudge nudge hint hint. Test the waters without making it seem like a big deal. He might be thinking the same thoughts and just afraid to bring up the subject with you.
Each experience in life has formed me, become part of me, made me stronger.
Thanks guys for the advice....it seems that when I get anxious and start thinking of what has happened in the past year and also when H takes his trip to Vegas, I get afraid. I want more, I want to see us moving forward faster, I want our M to be wonderful right NOW....I lose the patience that I really do need.
We are still moving forward, just more at H pace than at mine. But I guess thats ok as long as eventually we will get to where I want us to be.
Sometimes its so hard to give and give and give and not be getting back as much as I think I deserve. It kind of makes you wonder if maybe H is taking advantage of it and at some point will think he no longer needs to do anything for me, because I just do so much for him without getting as much in return. I also think about what if he never does start giving back what I need. Will I be able to stay in this M if that happens? I dont know..I love him to death and want so much to be with him, but I dont want to be unhappy though.
Just throwing some thoughts out there I have been having..always helps to do some journaling on here..
MarthaH -- Yes, its actually one of my "relationship library" books...dont remember when I read it last...I have read so many books in the past year...and have made a promise to myself to read at least one of them AGAIN, each month!!
For some reason, this morning I started to read some of my first posts. It was last June that I found out about OW. Wow, its seems like forever ago!! And I posted before that about how I knew there was no OW and H would never do that? How could I have been so clueless??
When H goes to Vegas, it is so hard for me. He left Thurs nite...I called him to ask a question and he just seemed irriated by me. So I made it quick and got of phone. Friday I did not hear from him all day..decided I was not going to call him, but did text him goodnite and that I hoped to get to talk to him on Sat. (Kind of a hint for hint for him to call) Well, it was about 7 sat night and I just went ahead and called him. He didnt answer, so I left message saying "Just called to say hi and see what you have been up to...if you want, you can call me back later..and if you would, could you let me know what time you will be home on Sun." Got a text back saying he couldnt talk not and would call back later. Cool!!
He did call back and I asked what he had been doing...had a nice, but short talk. But he did offer things he had been doing..so that was nice too...I was glad he called..made me feel better. BECAUSE, he could have not called, right?
I did a "While You Were Out" while he was gone. I redid our computer/workout room for him. He is into sport, so did a sports theme. I sure hope he likes it, it was a lot of work!
I wish OW H would have found out about there affair. Think his going to Vegas wouldnt happen as much. I do think that its probably a little bit uncomfortable for them now..if they do see each other. I dont honestly think they will be able to be "friends" like they were before all this happened. Sad to say, but I think OW probably is a little more sensible about that...last time he went to Vegas, it seemed like she was making excuses about why she wouldnt be hanging out with her brother (my H friend) when they came. Plus if OW' H knew, I dont think he would be seeing her at all when he went there, for sure. Lots of things would be different I think. Especially if they do still talk every once in a while...I dont think that would be happening either if her H knew.
Oh well, cant live on the "if only's" just keep living in the present and working towards the future!
Do you think he is seeing her when he is in Vegas? I think if she broke it off for her H she will not let things happen. Especially since she knows that you know. If she keeps sniffing around him, then she is putting her M at risk.
I feel for you and understand how you feel.
Keep the faith.
LIT
There are 3 sides to every situation: yours, mine and the truth. Knowing the difference is the key.
Lost- I dont think that they saw each other and "got together", but I do think that they might have hung out together since her brother is my H good friend and he was there with him. That is why I wish other people knew about them...then things like that would more than likely not happen.
Well, H came home and was really sick (3 days of no sleep and lots of drinking...) so his surprise was not as fun. He did say, "WOW!! and loved the pix I put on wall! I also did kind of sexy pix of me in his fav. football jersey and put in frame on computer desk..he did check that one out quite well! He thanked me, then went to bed, not really the "thanks" I was hoping for..a nice big hug and kiss would have been nice ...this was at 3:30pm and he stayed in bed all nite....guess he had a good time.
Before I went to sleep, I kissed on the forehead and said I was glad he was home and said good nite! Maybe I will get a better thank you today...I guess I can only hope!
Glad to hear that. I understand what you are saying. IT reminds me of a couple of lines in Sarah MacLachlan song.
Quote: Been up all night drinking to drown my sorrows down But nothing seems to help me since youve gone away Im so tired of this town where every tongue is wagging When every back is turned Theyre telling secrets that should never be revealed Theres nothing to be gained from this but disaster
Heres a good one Did you hear about my friend Hes embarrassed to be seen now Cause we all know his sins
So you may not really want what you think you want.
Lucky guy with the football jersey pic, I used to get those, but I screwed things up. Oh well.
Hopefully, today will be a good day. Even hung over he was pleased with your remake. THat is a good sign.
LIT
There are 3 sides to every situation: yours, mine and the truth. Knowing the difference is the key.
Woohoo!! Last night was good. Before H went away to Vegas, I put a risque card in his suitcase..and a "coupon" for one wild night of sex. Well, last night we were watching TV together and he said, I get to cash in my ticket...silly me, thought he was talking about a lottery ticket.. , but then I figured it out. Cool, more initating on his part!! Especially after coming back from Vegas and maybe seeing OW!
So yes, last night was good, I even asked for kiss goodnite and got one from him!!
Sorry, I just had to brag a little..all that anxiety and worry about him going to Vegas was all for nothing...things are getting so much better every day!!
He thanked me, then went to bed, not really the "thanks" I was hoping for..a nice big hug and kiss would have been nice 
...this was at 3:30pm and he stayed in bed all nite....guess he had a good time.
, but then I figured it out. Cool, more initating on his part!! Especially after coming back from Vegas and maybe seeing OW! 