Hi all... for those that followed my story thank you for all your kind words... for a recap
M 25 H 27 married 6 years together 12 2 children ages 2 and 4
Looks like I shouldnt have bragged so soon, I lasted at DB and true respect for about a month and then I guess I decided to just sliiiiide on back into my self absorbant ways I have managed to almost push him out the door once again... This time he was more serious in his words and I am very scared... he told me he could not support me emotionally anymore and that I could go find it somewhere else... he told me that he would continue to live under the same roof and support me and the kids financially( because neither one of us are willing to leave our children) and that I will keep up my responsibilities as a parent. and that he is done with me! I'm so sad right now.. I cried for an hour in the shower tonight... I did this to myself .. the last month I have been nothing but bitter and mean... resentful and hateful... I would never treat anyone like the way I treat him... Its all in fear that he will turn around and hurt me, I seem to be protecting myself.. while ruining my life I have reserved a copy of the 5 love languages because i know that I will find a lot of helpful information it.
I'm really scared this time guys... really scared. He left our bed tonight too.. he is sleeping in the guest room I have two more days home with him before he goes back to work.. I dont want to make things worse.. yet I am so very very sad and cant stop crying. Why do I put him through this... thanks for listening... I should have never thought I had it down!!
I have managed to almost push him out the door once again... This time he was more serious in his words and I am very scared... he told me he could not support me emotionally anymore and that I could go find it somewhere else... he told me that he would continue to live under the same roof and support me and the kids financially( because neither one of us are willing to leave our children) and that I will keep up my responsibilities as a parent. and that he is done with me! I'm so sad right now.. I cried for an hour in the shower tonight... I did this to myself .. the last month I have been nothing but bitter and mean... resentful and hateful... I would never treat anyone like the way I treat him... Its all in fear that he will turn around and hurt me, I seem to be protecting myself.. while ruining my life 