I've had a mini epiphany last night and this morning. It isn't just about getting laid, its more about feeling that your S wants it, and I think wants it enough to seek it out. I'm getting lots more than I have in years, but I'm finding that I still am having to get things rolling or nothing happens, and if I do get things rolling and happen to get her off first (more often than not), that's the end of it. What I would give to have her show some initiative: things like giving a BJ without my asking, meeting me somewhere with nothing under her coat, or some other equally nice surprise. I also discovered that it isn't really the sex that I am craving, rather it is the intimacy, particularly in the foreplay (which she tends to skip). Mr. Happy would love to be teased some before he was grabbed and pulled....
Oh, well. So I've learned something. Haven't a clue how to get from here to there though. PM should be showing up in the brown truck later today, so hopefully it will help me learn more about myself.
For me it is about the emotinal connection that is created within the act. My w and I made love on 2 consecutive days last week. I will tell you I felt so very close to her I was a new man. Now that it has been a week and a half since then that I don't feel the need to really even be around her.
Quote: For me it is about the emotinal connection that is created within the act. My w and I made love on 2 consecutive days last week. I will tell you I felt so very close to her I was a new man. Now that it has been a week and a half since then that I don't feel the need to really even be around her.
It is so funny that you say that Lee, my LDH has made love to me 2 consecutive nights in a row the last two times too ... although it has been about six weeks in between them, and that frustrates the hell out of me. Why ?
Number 1. I feel like his 'blow up doll' - he doesn't make much effort to make sure the experience is mind-blowing for me because he has been 'storing' it for so long (if you know what I mean ?) and
Number 2. I know that once he has made this 'effort' to ML that it is going to be another 6 weeks before he is 'ready' again.
What I can't understand is that the EC we had during both of those weeks made life so wonderful for him, our family and I but in between times he goes back to treating me with a 'cold shoulder' despite my efforts.
I am still waiting for my backorder of PM but have been following SSM for a couple of months now.
