BI, I feel for ya! It's very depressing to add up the cost of a M breakup. It's staggering. And I know how you feel about
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If it were just the marriage, or just the finances, or just the job thing, but it's everything. Everything.
You've got a huge weight on your shoulders.
Just thinking outloud here but I'm a faithful guy and I've got to believe there's a reason and a purpose why you've been given this load. Is this financial struggle actually, maybe keeping the two of you together? Are you learning anything from it? Do you think your H is learning? Are you afraid? How is the fear affecting your judgement, outlook and attitude? Could things be worse?
I know you're venting, and that's a good thing. I also know you'll bounce back, and be joyful for the blessings you have. I'm praying right now that your H be given a career opportunity that matches his interests.
Hang in there girl!
Love,
COG
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Big fat kisses to all my DB friends. I am so thankful for you.
H had a crappy day, he's been unable to sleep lately (or get into the deep REM sleep) and we don't have the $$ for a Rx. SO. I come home from work this morning to him snapping at D7, which he NEVER does. I'm the snappy parent! He apologized to her, and then drove himself half crazy thinking he had ruined her for life. etc.
Woo! Happy Anniversary to me!
He had a vase of tulips and a sweet card waiting for me. Yay!
Then he left to take the kids to school, I put out his card to find, and went to sleep.
We watched a DVD tonight together with popcorn; it was nice.
He's obviously not in bed with me now; a disappointment, but not unexpected. God's got to work all this out.
Thought I'd share with you what was happening 11 years ago. Sent an email to H with a link and the subject line "Happy Anniversary".
Better than last year, maybe, seeing as OW emailed H that night a year ago trying to re-establish contact. That was the last time. So that's better. A whole year without her.
The fact that I'm still upstairs/he's still downstairs at night checking emails, not so much better. Slow walk in, slow walk out.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
I'm glad there was some nice time shared together. I wish I could reach out and take some of your load off your shoulders, but I know you will come out of this furnace a bright, sparkling gem.
