It occurs to me that the Latin Luvah is not being the man I need him to be. First, he's gotta get his head on straight. No small feat. He is coming apart at the seams. I can literally see it. I cannot control what he does, but he is gonna have to figure out that he cannot control me...WTF is he thinking? I am no simpering hot house flower. I am a steel rose...and I have thorns and cannot be destroyed. Phooey on him.
Hey, the bright side is....I don't have to listen to him spew, because he runs away and doesn't talk to me for a few days...so if he does what he normally does, I will already be in NJ with the Gerlz!!!! That is the only bright spot on my horizon.
So, Mr. Napolean can continue to spew...I have to become Teflon coated and let it slide off...LL doesn't have any idea that there is a timeline and that time waits for no one, not even for someone with a God complex. I think Annie is right, I think he is scared of me and perhaps a little bit jealous that I am not letting all this crap bother me as much as it used to...took a while but I am not gonna fold, I KNOW I am stronger now than I ever have been....that thought alone makes me feel good about me.
Can hardly wait until I have decided to move on or he comes out of it...whichever comes first. I must admit that this is starting to wear thin.
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
Like I have said many times sweetie.....I will always love and say "Thank You" to Rich for leaving me. For it has made me grow, learn more about myself, learn more about other peoples feelings, simply just learn more about life in itself. I can truly say, that I have bloomed because of my seperation. Now, if only he could see it.
I say this because I have watched you grow and "BLOOM" into that gorgeous rose you are. So no matter what happens in the next chapter, it shall be better as we are better people.
Love you Princess.....
NOW START PACKING!!
Jeanette
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
Did you know what my D6 asked H a few weeks ago, she said, "daddy what did you want to become when you grew up?" he answered..."GOD" "but I have to wait now until he retires !!!!"
Is this anything like your H????
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Hey mrspb......I would love to learn those cuban sayings cos my american ones are pretty vile.......and people know what i am saying...HAHA
Me 53 H 51 OW 25 Bomb may 06 left june 8/ 06 ILYBNILWY (twice!) 7/6/07 H wants to come home 7/21/07 H comes home 7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW now piecing in earnest
Cinders, LL doesn't SAY he is GOd....I just think he has the rescuer complex...he needs to save everyone as if that is his role on life or that he can actually do it when people really have to save themselves, really.
Okay, your H has some issues there but so does mine.
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
ya know thats why my stbxh fell for OW that rescuer complex
Me 53 H 51 OW 25 Bomb may 06 left june 8/ 06 ILYBNILWY (twice!) 7/6/07 H wants to come home 7/21/07 H comes home 7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW now piecing in earnest
PWS, there has to be something to that. I agree...
I was reading in an MLC book---the Silent Son....and it said that a lot of silent sons have a rescuer complex, usually they come from a violent household where the son had to protect his mother---save her-----from a dire situation. I think I must have fed into that b/c I would always tell LL that he "saved" me from a terrible fate...I meant it as a compliment...
BLEH. Hindsight is 20/20.
Aug '06: H moved out July '08: H had a kid with the OW May 12 '09: emancipation day
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller
