Hey, Lisa...you bet I have...I just don't want to get my hopes too high...slowleeee
Dotto...where is your thread? My h is also the auditor..but he's pretty easy going, and not the mean person that the banks are used to. He was at another locally owned bank here for 23 years...then the old president dies after 60 years, and new stuff happened....he up and quit one day...no warnings!!That is when our troubles began...not because of quitting...it was the greatest thing for him...but because the ff was also there and she quit...then went to the other bank...and h got job there too...and she was going through her "rough time"with her h, and her drinking...there was more of a social group that h got involved and that shook my rock...after 22 years...he was finding new friends, going out...smoking..it just shook everything up in our lives that we were'nt expecting. Anyway i hope in the long run it will have been the best thing that could have happened to us.We have discovered so much about ourselfs that may never had happened if all this would not have taken place. H might go to Kansas to school for 2 weeks..he went into this job with no experience as an auditor, but much knowledge for just about anything that is out before him. Please let me know your thread, i would really like to talk more...our h kinda sound like they are going through the same"don't know what i really want" thing!! Sue
Glad to hear from everyone...don't know, Jethro, if it is a sign for good things to come..but it sure felt better then it has in a long time..just seeing h smile so much brings a joy to my heart..despite everything that has happened, I truly want him to be happy with himself and his life... with or without me...of course I would like the fairy tale ending that he one day says "i'm sorry, thanks for waiting for me, I love you , I want to spend the rest of our lives together" etc...will take it a step at a time Sue
Not too much to talk about...h called me at work today and sounded awful...said he had fever and cold...asked me if on my lunch hour I would bring him some medicine and some pop to drink...of course I would..but why didn't he call his ff???she would not have thought twice about calling him for something,I don't want to ask too much, but I really think ff is dropping him little by little for her new fling..that's ok with me UNTIL the next time..I feel bad that h thought of her as a close friend only to maybe see that she was using him for her convenience..he's not stupid, so he must see something...she's flying off to Las Vegas..maybe she will stay there!!!.. I am enjoying each new day... Sue
Just some journaling...h called tonight and asked what i was doing...first time for that!!I said nothing..he asked if I had eaten, i said just a bite of mac and cheese..I said why..he said he felt like pizza but did not want to order just for himself, i said I could eat a piece asked if he wanted to come over, so he did...he even took his shoes off, a first in months...sat down, orderd pizza, played a game with our kids before they were off for the night, we talked about work and everyday things...one thing that did bother me was that he has been sick for a few days and the sec at the church has also, and today when he stopped out htere she was back at work and another staff member called and jokingly made a comment about the fact that he was sick for a few days and the sec had been sick for a few days..and now they were both back....he said to person on phone are you trying to start rumors about us, and she said oh no someone else has already done that.There is one lady who works at the church who is miss- know- it- all- gossip whom h has said wants to butt in when he and sec. are talking, and seems to think because he is there and talking to sec, that something must be going on.. I guess the thing that seems to bother me is that h thinks it is funny that these people are thinking or saying these things.When he first moved out and I told him about relatives that assume things or co workers said things, he was upset that people say things when they don't know a thing that is going on, now he is taking it in stride...I know it should not bother me but it does. Anyway, we watched a little tv and then h left..I did not ask for a hug and he did not offer..said he would see me at church Sunday...Small steps... Sue
