Yeah, I guess I shouldn't be so negative. At least my GF broke off her relationship with OM, and she still lives at home. It could be MUCH worse. I have nothing but respect for all you guys who are in worse situations than my own, yet STILL keep a PMA.
Ok, so we went to dinner last night and I asked her if she would take the Love Language quiz w/ me after our MC appointment on friday. She agreed to, although she seemed a little weird about it. The other day we bumped into a co-worker of hers at the coffee shop. I was a little pissed because she didn't introduce me, but I didn't say anything about it, which is a good positive step for me! He then asked her later at work if that was her boyfriend that he saw her with, referring to me. She responded "yes", and told her how he sees me in there all the time. This morning we car-pooled together, ran into the same co-worker at the coffee shop, and she introduced me simply as Jeff. Not "this is my boyfriend, Jeff", just "Jeff". Of course, I know she already recognized me as her boyfriend when he asked her at work (which made me feel great last night when she was telling me the story!). I know, I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but my self esteem is really that low since this whole thing started. UA, please tell me I'm being ridiculous...
you're being ridiculous
First of all, you already acknowledged that she DID tell him you were her BF and HELLO!!!!! She's still recognizing you in that capacity this is good man!
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
It's hard man, I go from one extreme to the other. I hate to say it but it all is in reaction to her. Thats the worse thing you can do, but everyone does it. I sit here all day at work, on this site, and try to keep a PMA. But so many thoughts go through your head. Today is a rough day for me, and You will have them too.
M-31 W-25 S-1 1/2 bomb dropped 9-01-06,and repeating over and over "I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be." Groucho Marx.
It's strange how you go from one extreme to the other, out of nowhere. I used to be so confident. I have a tattoo on my calf that says "STRENGTH, PRIDE, DISCIPLINE", referring to my straight edge lifestyle. I don't feel like I possess ANY of those traits right now. Part of that is because I drew alot of it from her. I need to learn how to draw it from me, then I'll begin to feel like I can live without her if that's what it comes to.
It's strange how you go from one extreme to the other, out of nowhere. I used to be so confident. I have a tattoo on my calf that says "STRENGTH, PRIDE, DISCIPLINE", referring to my straight edge lifestyle. I don't feel like I possess ANY of those traits right now. Part of that is because I drew alot of it from her. I need to learn how to draw it from me, then I'll begin to feel like I can live without her if that's what it comes to.
VERY good statement....
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
I can't believe what just happened. I'll give a brief explanation of our job status. I work at a SAAB dealership, she works at a VW dealership, across the street from me. We (SAAB) currently have a used VW being serviced at the dealership where she works. OM just called here to get permission to do more work on the VW, and I answered the phone. I think he was a little shocked to hear my voice, but we both kept it professional. He actually seemed a little too comfortable, kinda chipper and upbeat with me. He tried joking w/ me. My blood is boiling right now. I want to be primitive for the moment and pull this guy aside so I can tell him what I think of him. While I was writing this, he called again. This time not so chipper. Scumbag...
HEy, relax, you aren't going to kill him and get him out of the picture. He is there and you have to deal with that. Even if you get back together.
But you could run him over....sorry did I say that out loud
M-31 W-25 S-1 1/2 bomb dropped 9-01-06,and repeating over and over "I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be." Groucho Marx.
this is good man! 
now you're gettin' it! What she was attracted to in the beginning, she will be again.....