Well...still no phone call from the XH. Now, I am getting really worried...I ate some buttered popcorn and cookies for dinner last night...that proves to me, I'm worried.
My plans are to go to the mall in the morning and see if I can find something for him for Christmas, but I'll keep the receipt, just incase it has to go back...
Nervous is not the word for now...more like sadness...
I'll be back on after I make something to eat...but I'm not really hungry...just sad.
Well... as they say with DBing on the separation board... no relationship talk! Just change the subject when it comes up, ask non-relationship questions, and let him talk your ear off. Work on friendship. That's the first step (or should be) for any healthy relationship. Later, if things do get going you can do R talk. I think you need a good strong friendship, that's starting to border on relationship, in place first before you go to the whole affair thing.
BTW, before it became popular I copied "Goodbye My Lover" on a CD and put it in a card to my husband during the divorce. I think it's a great song... very sad (even though my daughter makes fun of JB saying his music is wretchedly commercial ).
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
Yes, I want a friendship first as well. The other night at dinner, he asked with whom I had the affair with. I just didn't want to go there...I've put it behind me...but I also know he'll ask again. However, I agree that for now I have to prove that I can be the great person he fell in love with...
Run...buy his latest cd...out of bedlam...there's a song at the end called No Bravery...gut wretching... You and I sound alike...for my XH's b-day, I sent him a cd with a song by Big Head Todd & The Monsters...where he admits she had done him wrong, but now she's long gone... the cd was in his car when we went out to eat...words will sometimes fail - but I have music for everthing I need to say...
Okay... I am sensing you dont want to talk about it. That is good, 1210. I hope you had a good dinner, though. Hope the felines are well this evening !
Yes, I ate...had to put something inside after all that junk I consumed last night.
No, I'm still sad...but I'll get over it...I guess that I was expecting him to call by now...oh well.
Cheddie is ill..he might need to go to the vet...I hand bathed him last night...then brushed him...he had breakfast on my bed...dinner, the same...he has leukemia, but it is being maintained for now...he's having a spell now. He will feel better in a few days, but I might just rush him down in the morning...he's my handsome orange boy...so sweet and funny.
Well, he at least keeps me company, we both feel down.
I'm going to sign off for now, watch some TV or play some cd's...I'm no good to give advice tonight, I'll probably just PO someone....so I'll see you tomorrow...................................................
I understand. I hope you are ok and have an ok evening. I was going to ask you how old Cheddie was..since we went through the same thing here... but I will save it for another day. Stay well.
CM, that was beautiful! Yet I have this sudden overwhelming urge to burn all my poetry books. Must be a coincidence, eh 1210, Everybody gets down sometimes, and this time of year is especially difficult. You had hopes that he would call and it hasn't happened. Yes, disappointing. Do the things that help you feel a bit better, baby steps! You'll bounce back, I'm not worried. I hope your cat is better today, keep us posted on both of you.
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