Oh the patience you have. So after 11 months the feelings for him are still there? Is the attraction level strong enough that you could hop back in right now?
I know what you know and taking it slow is the right choice....but I'm just wondering about the feelings and attraction level with your XH?
M-35 going on 15 D-8 S- 3 yrs ex-CL(w)- 30
D over one year
I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be. Douglas Adams "Just Be"
Well, he looked great...sounded great...was really sweet and polite, but I know him, I'm waiting to see the real him...he's a car dealership owner, they are slick.
It seemed like yesterday, but it has been a while...I think my gut is telling me to be aware, be cautious, self preserve...I just can't rush back...I need to see something.
In reality we're all vastly imperfect. Who are YOU really.
Well.... distance and time often can make a difference. Good luck to you! I'm sure there's a good reason you hooked up together in the first place and I think that makes the whole thing worth exploring.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
I know we all have flaws, but I am a little hesitant in rushing back too quickly. My X is very smooth, everyone loves him, but, he also can be sneaky about things.
I do love him dearly, I'm just apprehensive a little. I will go out with him, of course, but no further until I see that he has changed as well.
5 years....HUH. Maybe the W will get her head out of her A$$ before then. If not five years is way to long to wait around. At least that is my thoughts right now but who knows. Not to mention I will still have to take my next R before the committe.... Hopefully I can get approval....
Hey 1210, Just so you know. I feel totally different after this week concerning my sitch. I really do not care (and I actually mean it now) what the W is doing. My only concern is getting back on my feet for me and my kids. They need me now more than ever. I see it in their eyes every minute I get to spend with them.
By they Way the W is acting really wierd again. It is like she is trying to get me pissed off and I am not biting. The whole showing up late, last night she tried to start a fight about the kids and X-mas day, Money, the works. It is just really weird. Like last night, she said that "SHE IS GOING TO HAVE THE KIDS ON X-MAS DAY and that I CAN have them on X-mas Eve." My response was simple that it was my day and that we will have to work somthing out. I told her I was not going to fight about it (because she stormed out of the house pouting as usual) and that we can talk about it later.
Anyway, Sorry for taking up space on you thread the real reason I stopped but was to just see how you are doing. I am not going tell you anything other than I agree with AT that it is kinda weird hw he just all of a sudden just came running back with open arms. Seems a little awkward to me being a guy and all. Just becareful.
Later, O
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
I am going out to dinner with him tomorrow night...he left a message on my answering machine...I wonder where we will go...does he remember I love shrimp scampi?
