H will realize what he is doing. He is not happy right now. I pray for you guys everynight right along with JSO and my W. I know that God has a plan for all of us and I will let him lead me in whatever direction that I am supposed to go.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
Did you read the email that I forwarded to you from his mom?
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
You know, all I can do is sit back and enjoy the fact that his mind is in such a state of confusion. If he truly didn't love me and cared so little about his family, then it would not be such a hard decision for him to walk away. I can see that whenever I am with him. He can't look me in the eyes and that is what kills me. I know that his heart is softening and he is starting to see the changes in me which include my attitude towards him and his choices. I have continued to be kind and compassionate towards him. WHENEVER he makes a smart decision or when he comes over looking so nice, I complement him by saying "I am proud of you" or "you look really nice."
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Too bad it's not as simple as them waking up and seeing just how lucky they are to have us.
You sound so much like me, and it's nice, because sometimes I wonder if I'm just this doormat who is waiting around to take all H's crap. I've never been the b!tchy woman to him. EVER. It's just not in me. There aren't any excuses for what he's done--not real ones anyway.
Keep up the fight. You're a good woman and you deserve true happiness.
Thanks Aud. It is always nice to get encouragement from people that are going through the same life struggles.
Sometimes I do feel like the doormat. He comes over whenever he feels like it and then takes off whenever he wants. That is the hard part..... He gets to talk about things on his time frame and I am suppose to sit around and wait for his confused mind to become clear.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Quote: He gets to talk about things on his time frame and I am suppose to sit around and wait for his confused mind to become clear.
Unfortunately that is what we all have to do if we want to save our M. Is it Fair? Hell NO! But I know that what I am trying to do is the correct desicion in Gods eyes and he will give me the power to deal with it.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
Just upset at how H is shutting out his family...it absolutely depresses me knowing that he is allowing the OW to cut him out of his own families lives. I never denied him going to see any of his family but he is with her knowing that he will not be accepted there with the decisions that he is making.
I didn't talk to him at all yesterday and it was pretty painful. That is the first day in several weeks that we haven't talked.......was a miserable day.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I guess it wasn't miserable...just a little painful to know that he didn't make an effort to call me. I know that he probably slept most of the day since he had to work but I thought that he might call me on his way to work....
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
