I really don't know what i am going to do. Hopefully since I am at work I am going to focus solely on my work at hand and get through the day. From there, I will try to stay positive about everything.
I don't know if I had said before but yesterday I went to church like always. But it was funny because I had to go up and sing a special. When I sat down, one of the ladies in front of me turned around and handed me a bracelet. On it was the word "HOPE". The message given was on "HOPE". The special song at the end of the service was "There is HOPE". Too funny. I guess that is the slap upside the head that I needed.
I am going to continue my persuit of being nice and loving whenever I see him. I am going to try to stop asking him if he spent the night with her. I am going to try to be the wife that he didn't think i was when he first started this A. I am going to look forward to each day and especially the days that we have counseling. I guess that is what i am going to do to make myself feel better.
Thanks for the kick in the pants!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
It's amazing how these tender mercies come just when we need them most...we are known and loved.
It is true. Just when things seem impossible, someone is always there to reassure us that they truly are possible and there is reason to be hopeful!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
You know, it is weird but right now I have this sense of peace on me. Like everything is ok and will work out. No anxiety, no stress, just peace. It wasn't like that this morning. I was all worked up about our anniversary and now I am at peace. I guess God had taken my anxiety and situation and put it on his shoulders to carry for me.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I don't know if you pray a lot. If you do, google the Hedge of Thorns Prayer. I prayed it a lot when my W first started having an affair and eventually it ended. I am convinced that this prayer is a miracle. I pray it 3-4 times a day when I am alone. I am starting to pray the prayer a lot again lately.
Keep up the good work.
Also, funny that you mention the "hope" thing. A good friend/counselor of mine tells me that God is a Spirit of Hope not a spirit of fear. When we are fearful or anxious or worried that is the evil one trying to get a stronghold on us. Just look to God and that hopeful feeling will return soon.
Sorry, if I got to Bible-y
I haven't called my wife at all today. . . .only to return her call. I ended it nicely saying that I was going to eat and for her to have a good day.
I am glad that I found your post. I find strength in you
Best regards, SOH
M 34
H 34
Together 8 yrs
Married 7 yrs
Son 2 1/2
Son 2 1/2
SD 12
I am so glad that you have found this thread too. I am also happy that you find strength in me. My strength comes from God. I have to keep reminding myself that all things happen for a reason and God will see us through it all. I don't know if you have seen these scriptures but I have seen them on someones thread.
Hab 2:3 At the time I have decided my words will come true. You can trust what I say about the future. It may take a long time, but keep on waiting-it will happen!
Isaiah 43:18-19 Forget what happened long ago! Don't think about the past. I am creating something new. There it is! Do you see it?
Maybe these can give you a little more strength in your sitch.
I will definitely look up that prayer and read it everyday with the standers affirmation. You can find that on http://www.rejoiceministries.org/. Take look at that if you haven't already.
Have a great evening if I don't talk to you anymore today!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
I am going to do my best to hang on to it. Tomorrow is our next counseling session so we shall see if I can keep that faith and peace through it. Only God can help me do that!
You would be proud. I only called him 2 times today. The first time I left him a message to wish him a Happy anniversary and then the second time to remind him about MC tomorrow.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
Thank you. I need all the prayers that I can get. I am so thankful that you and SOH have found my thread and are encouraging me along the way. Hopefully I can return the favor.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
