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Dear STIMI....

Wow, thank you so much for everything you shared. I love your "letter" - I think it would be good to actually send to my H - what do you think? I might alter a few things just to make it sound more like "me", but otherwise it is perfect! I really love what you said about it not being part of my values...that's what hurts so much and I would like to express that to my H. Not in a blaming way, but part of the shocker for me is that I thought we shared the same values.

Anyway, I do plan to file for legal S this month. I have a final bankruptcy meeting on the 19th (hopefully just a formality) and then I can focus on the next big thing

I think I will make that list, I need to see on paper the characteristics I am looking for. I will put it in my "God box." This might sound strange, but I was watching the public memorial for the Crocodile Hunter last night on t.v. and so much of what he expressed about his family and his "mission to save the wildlife" was so awesome to me. I thought, I would love to have someone so passionate about life and family in my life. I feel the same way he felt about his family and about life. My H unfortunately seems to have lost his passion for anything positive - at least in my view. He is obviously depressed and I pray for his recovery. He was never a gregarious person, but he did always express a love of family. Now that seems to be put aside.

I am trying to just keep opening up my life to God and to what God has in store for me. Even though it looks impossible that H and I would ever get back together, I know that God can make the impossible - possible. But I can't live for that outcome.

I need to keep going on with my life...

Thanks for your support.

Happy New Year!