All of his bull . . . seems to fly on the weekends when these boards are dead! *insert eye roll here*
So . . . I just don't even know what to say if/when he calls. I don't want to launch into some HUGE rant . . if there's a good reason, BUT I don't want to be his doormat. I want the truth and I want it now! It should be his turn to play doormat. He's probably just trying to keep me on his good side so he can come see the girls "anytime he wants". I don't know. I don't know what he's thinking . . and I'll be dammned if he ever tells me a lick of the truth.
Quote: He'll call when he calls and you worrying about it isn't going to make it happen any faster.
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I'm trying to figure out what I should say to him. Or should I just leave EVERYTHING alone . . . and act like I could care less why/if he lied. I really don't care. I just refuse to be strung along as the "OW" . . . . I won't file for the D, that's all on him. But I will lock him out of my life. I'm tired of being his "weekend fling". Which apparently I was for 7 months. It really makes me angry. Maybe I'm just looking for a good reason to shut him out and move on. Maybe there really is a good reason. But I doubt it . . . it's just more lies.
I realize I've been thinking about it too much . . . but I just want it settled. Don't we all! But I don't care if he does choose the D . . I just want him to pick a feeling and STICK WITH IT! I'm tired of the yo-yo act from him.
I had thought about that Amy. . . but that means NEVER picking up my phone . . .
I hate making everyone talk to the answering machine . . . It's annoying . . .just because I don't want to chat with him. I don't know . . . . I'm so stinkin' frustraighted.
It only throws me into a tailspin more because I want him out of my life. I'm tired of going in circles. At least when he leaves it doesn't put me in the uncomfortable position. I'm sooo ready to be done.
I've been thinking about what a joke our M would be even if we "stayed together". HA! He'd be gone all the time anyway. So what difference does it make.
I would RB but because of my income (which is laughable ) I have a phone plan where I only have local service (phone cards for long distance) so it's only like 20.00 a month and they credit me 8 or 10 dollars a month so I pay less. Soooo anyway . . . I'm not allowed extras. I can't get any of there additional services include caller ID. I know because I asked. It sucks . . . but those few extra dollars cover other things. Sounds silly I know . . but that's the way the cookie crumbles.
Who knows if he'll even call again anyway.
I'm just going to try not to think about it, I'm not going to worry about any of it. There's no point. I'm still VERY angry . . . but hell he may as well be dead to me now anyway. Maybe he'll just stay that way!
Well Amy . . I can't wait to hear what you mean exactly. I read your last post here . . .don't quite understand what you mean.
He called me this morning. Said yes he had gotten the phone but it hadn't gotten turned on yet. She is not out with him, so he says. Blah blah blah. . . Nothing else to say. He loves me . . he's sorry. He's sorry it took him so long to realize where he needs/wants to be. etc etc etc. He can't wait to come "home" on the 2/3 . . . WHATEVER!
I'm not going to tell him he can't come see his girls. I'm trying to step as cautiously as possible. He's lucky that there was at least a semi-good cause. I don't really believe it. We'll see what happens with the OW. I'm determined this time . . . I won't get hurt.
