I'm still mulling it over. No seriously I know what the answer is and of course I want a good, strong, healthy relationship. I am just too fearful (read paralyzed) to chance it right now.
H is leaving next week to go hunting for 11 days. I do not even bother to object, because it would just be a big fight and then he would go anyway and I would still be alone to handle everyting.
I would like to have just one day to do something I would like to do. Guess I am just feeling sorry for myself today.
I watched The Break Up last night. Aside from crying my eyes out it was a pretty good movie. I won't go into much detail in case others have not seen it, but I do find it funny (odd) watching movies through the eyes of a DB'er.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
I would like to have just one day to do something I would like to do. NNP, Why not plan some things while H is gone? What is keeping you from doing it now? My problem is always deciding WHAT I want to do just for me. Matilda
I understand. Forgot you had kids (sorry!). The only time I get time to myself is if D16 spends the night somewhere. It's a treat, but it doesn't happen often. Matilda
Try harder. Schedule it. Do it for you. Remember that night you wanted to go to the meeting and H had to step up and take some responsibility? Worked out, didn't it. Honest NNP, make yourself a priority in your life. An evening, an afternoon, a whole day. Take it, make it yours.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
I will make an effort to do that WCW. I always feel so selfish though.
The boys and I had a very nice weekend. H got home last night and I had made his favorite cake (from scratch). He was surprised. I truly enjoy doing little things for him like that.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
No seriously I know what the answer is and of course I want a good, strong, healthy relationship. I am just too fearful (read paralyzed) to chance it right now.