I sure hope so. I know that's not necessarily the great christian answer.
I'll try to wrap my mind around this. It'll be easier after they run all those horrible tests on her . . and figure out exactly what the problem is. It'll be easier once that part is done. At least then I can face it head to head and know what I am in for. The not knowing kills me.
I'll work on wrapping my head around praising and faith is something that hasn't happened yet. WOW . . . that'll be a real "leap of faith" for me. I could go on about all the reasons it's hard to do . . but most of you can figure them out. And it wouldn't get me anywhere anyway. Thanks Amy.
Emily, I am so glad to hear how serene you sound. Yeah it has been a long time and you are seeing the "fruits of your labor." I am so f'ing proud of you. Sorry for the explitive but sheesh you are awesome honey. ....keep believing ........... you are becoming the Emily we all knew you were. xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ALI God Bless...
Quote: I'll try to wrap my mind around this. It'll be easier after they run all those horrible tests on her . . and figure out exactly what the problem is. It'll be easier once that part is done. At least then I can face it head to head and know what I am in for. The not knowing kills me.
No, Emily. Who's report are you going to believe? The doctors? Or God's Word?
She's already healed.
And thank you, Emily, for pulling me back up on my feet. I'm not sure I'll stand but you've brought me out of my closet .
So thank you.
Kiya is healed. He said so.
One more thing...
See? you get something flowing...
"Jehovah Rapha" - It means The Lord My Healer.
I don't know exactly why I had to say that, but there ya go.
It's a horrible 8 months . . TERRIBLE. BUT . . . I'm so thankful it happened. Coming here and meeting all of you has made me look long and hard at myself. I am becoming a better person. I would have never looked at it as I have if not for you all!
Emily, I don't know if you're including me in that thank you or not, but I want you to know that I'm excited to see this new attitude of yours. You seem to be coming to that point where, like the old hymn says, you have peace like a river in your soul.
I want you to know that I care about you and have been praying for you.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)
Quote: And thank you, Emily, for pulling me back up on my feet. I'm not sure I'll stand but you've brought me out of my closet .
So thank you.
I was just one TINY little part of the outpouring of your support Amy! But you are more than welcome anyway!
Thanks Santhony and Ali . . . I love that you all still check in on me!
RB you most definately were including in that THANK YOU! Without you . . I was recieving good advice . . BUT YOU my friend are the one that threw the mirror at me and basically said, "LOOK THERE FIRST." I humbly say THANK YOU!
Nothing new to report about my sitch. Haven't heard from H . . he suppose to be in FL. today . . and after he drops that load he'll be returning to PA. I'm getting a slight nerve thing about this weekend. . . what with his mother and little sister coming up to see the baby. But it'll be good! I have faith.
I got a call from the doctors office today . . FINALLY giving me the appointment for Kiya's actual doctors appointment. We were seeing an assisant but now we are seeing an actual doctor . . YIKES!! I'm trying to change that thinking Amy . . I SWEAR. You were VERY on point am I going to believe in "man or God".
Peace is flowing inside of me. It's nice . . . the water may still be a little choppy but . . it's managable. Thank you God!! I'll be cruising . . .
How should I act around my H this weekend. I don't want to act like nothing is wrong and I don't want to get all reattached because his words mean NOTHING to me. . . just more empty promises . . I want to see some action. So do I keep myself reserved or what? Any advice there? I'm not stressed about it . . just thought I'd throw it out there.
Quote: I don't want to act like nothing is wrong and I don't want to get all reattached because his words mean NOTHING to me. . . just more empty promises . . I want to see some action.
Why do you want to do this? Are you trying to push some buttons or force some issues? What are you hoping to accomplish by doing this?
If it were me, I would try to act like I would around any of my regular friends. Don't know if I could do this, but that would be my goal. I would want to keep things light and pleasant.
"Our life is what our thoughts make it."
Marcus Aurelius
Maybe stevieray is right. Visualize how you want to behave around him and do just that! Doesn't mean it will go that way - but if you get a picture in your mind of how you want it to go and how you want to behave - you may have a better chance of acheiveing it.
My recommendation might be to act "as if". Make sure the house is tidy, everything taken care of - basically a outward look that "Emily can do this on her own" (You CAN do it on your own by the way!). If your H approaches you about anything R or M related - do what you need to do, but I would recommend you be in the control seat. You define the boundaries and the terms and be ready to say - "I am not ready to talk about that right now, but will think about what you said...."
You are strong Emily. Please do not let this visit tear you down. This could be the calm before the storm - just be sure you stay calm even if there is a storm. You can do it - we believe in you.
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo ALI
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Emily, I don't know if you're including me in that thank you or not, but I want you to know that I'm excited to see this new attitude of yours. You seem to be coming to that point where, like the old hymn says, you have peace like a river in your soul.