Your conviction could move mountains today. As long as you stay focused on your goals and hopes and wishes, you will be able to make amazing things happen. You know it's true: if you want something badly enough, you can make it happen. Of course, this requires effort on your part, but you have things in the right perspective today. You will see a clear path and you'll be ready to follow it. Making sacrifices won't be difficult when you realize what's at stake
Quote: It is just a feeling that I have, that plus the fact that we have not been intimate since last November. No man, IMHO, can go that long without sex.
Me too Mama. As you know, I was last intimate probably on the exact night you were...hmmmm...lol. Anyway, I have gone that long without sex and probably am in for more desert before the oasis. It's a fact of life right now I have learned to accept but only because I know one way or another, it's temporary.
Update: My D10 went home with my parents, that live 3 hours away. My D9 and my S5 spent the day at my brother's new house. I taught my B how to use a weed wacker, he was VERY impressed with me. We called my H around 5 and asked him to meet us there.
Something happened today that really devastated me. I found out that my SIL had to have a biopsy on her breast. It is very scary. She finally has everything she wants; husband, child, house and now this. This in of itself makes me so greatful for what I have. Today! It could all come crashing down on me like a house of cards tomorrow but for right now, I am ok, I am happy.
My H ended up joining us. It was very nice. Although my brother picked up on how insecure my two youngest kids are. They are up Daddy's a$$. They are so afraid that he will leave and not come back. This, I believe, is a result of him staying out all night during this past winter.
I told them each (my B and SIL), seperately, that no matter what happens in their marriage, they need to communicate to eachother. They should not RUN to the arms of someone else. If anything, for the sake of their son. I see what it has done to my kids, and they do too. At least I know that I might possibly be helping another couple avoid the pain that I have been thru.
Ok, I'm feeling the need to "talk" again to my H. I want reassurance from him that he is 100% committed to our M, not just by his actions but his words as well.
A couple of days ago SirenTears wrote this to me:
Quote: Before you talk to your H there is a really good book by Michelle. It is called "How to Get Through to the Man You Love" or "A Woman's Guide to Changing Her Man" (different titles same book). Men don't do well with the "talk".
I just read the first chapter here and think I will hold off talking until after I get my hands on this book.
I sometimes feel like I am spinning my wheels. I know he is "trying" but I want more. Why is that? I need to get over the A, forgive him and start trusting him again. I think this will help in our R. I think that maybe subconsciously I may be forcing H to relive his guilt over and over. I don't want to be doing that, I want to move past it and improve our life together.
Hi All, Yesterday my D9 and S5 did our own thing. We left our house around 1:00 and did not return until around 3:30. Much to our surprise H was here. I felt the hood of his car and it was still hot so I don't think he was here long. He said he stopped for a beer after work.
We went to the local sports store; Dicks, and bought this bean bag game that we played last week at the block party.
We came home and played all night with our kids and my D9's friend. Had a lot of fun. H was very complimentary, and courteous and we had alot of moments where our arms were touching and neither one of us moved away.
Today we took the kids and my D's friend to the zoo. We spent 4 hours there, it was a great day. We then stopped at the pizza place that I used to work at; I left 2 years ago. They are hiring again and I let them know that I am definitely interested in working there again.
The funny thing was that it took everyone a while to recognize me, since I weigh a lot less than when I worked there. Everyone keep their fingers crossed that they want to rehire me, especially since all the collage girls are going back to school. I used to make at least $150 a night there in tips. If I were to babysit again, it would take me a whole week of 9 hours/5 days a week to make that much money.
Quote: Life dealt you a blow. Yes you have had your ups and downs, but you used this pain to create yourself into a better person... Regardless of what happens in your marriage you took this pain and turned it into and opportunity. YOU are becoming a better person.
This is my lesson for today, big time. Learning for all of us. What we're here to do. So simple really. My H gave me a GIFT. Best use it to it's fullest potential. It's my LIFE, after all.
Mamabear, you are doing awesome. You are growing, learning, blooming. Good luck with the pizza job! I miss my waitressing days - I loved serving people and raking in those tips. I'm betting on the fact that they'll be calling you really soon.
I'm rooting for you Mamabear. You are a great role model, as a mama, and as a DBer. Keep up the good work.
PositivelyListening ************************************** When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller
Finding your sweetheart freshly intriguing is as easy as asking a few interesting, open-ended questions -- about their past, their values and more. You might just learn something rather surprising.
Your past mistakes are definitely lessons you should learn from, but try not to let them paralyze you. You can't let yourself be intimidated by what might happen ... you just have to trust yourself that you can do it. Now is not the time for mulling things through, reviewing all the options, or debating pros and cons. No -- it's the day to grab the bull by the horns and show no fear. By putting on an award-winning bravery act, you will fool yourself into believing you're fearless!
How's that for inspiration!? Had another nice evening with H. I really think this is working. His words and actions are definitely much more loving. Keep your fingers crossed
