Byron's been doing the reconnect & then run dance of mlc Daughter is adjusting to my firmer boundaries althou a bit begrudgingly Navy Son aka Prodigal Son is doing well & considering Re-enlisting so he can get additional training & also check into being stationed statesside
I'm exhausted right now but have started to see a new chiropracter who i'm not quite thrilled with we'll see after my 1st real appointment if I keep with him if he doesn't do a more extensive adjusting then i'll be looking for someone else i liked my old chiro until he screwed me with the insurance double dipping he charged both my atty as well as my insurance looking to get paid by both from the car accident if he hadn't done that I'd have kept on with him
my eyesight has improved so some books i'm able to read without glasses it was kinda funny the other weekend when i realised i was reading & didn't have on my glasses so depending on the print & how much light is in the room & how much reading i've already done for the day on whether i need to read with glasses
I tried my hand at mystery shopping but the comapny bestmark.com is confusing the guy who hired me disappeared right after i got hired & they didn't know who was going to be my "boss" then the surveys which i had to fill out they didn't have anyone go over with me my new "boss" oked two surveys the 2nd one which I did but it was was rejected by editing that upset me because it had been reviewed by my new "boss" she was like the survey was great we had discussed my answers & why I had put a few of my comments in there so to get the reject notice & be told that I'd be shorted due to the rejected well it pissed me off I got my 1st check yesterday from bestmark.com & it had no explaination of what it was for but short what of what I was expecting since i've worked as an independant contractor before i'm more than thinking that 1)this company needs to get it's act together 2) i'm going to find another company to work for
when i've worked as an IC prior they didn't take taxes out they sent a check but they also listed what the check was for & any fees which were deducted out so that it's easy to match assignments bestmark's check is only a check nothing to indicate whats going on no assignment number, no explaination of deductions for the shortage no dates for the time period it covers - just a check & confusion
will update more later on - got busy that i almost forgot to finish this post that seems to be happening alot more lately
wow time is sure flying & the ups & downs & twists & turns of the mlc roller coaster contiue the thing with being semi-comfortable in LimboLand is that when I do get caught up on the ride, I realise it & my ups & downs aren't as drastic as in the early years
I'm missing my baby boy but God has granted me peace so that I'm not worrying about him "Prodigal Son" is trying to get someone trained to cover his position most of the folks are trained to "drive" the ship USS Harpers-Ferry but only Prodigal & another guy are trained to "Park" it into a port he won't be apporved for leave until he's got someone trained & passed on qualifications
with the recent events there's a part of me that is fearful theres no other way for Prodigal to come home except by plane but i'm keeping up my prayers & i know that God's going to keep Prodigal protected so i'm praying that he'll be able to get some military flights to keep his costs down Prodigal is hoping to come home near the end of november so that he'll be here for his b-day in early dec & possibly leave after christmas last yr he had to go back before thanksgiving & althou he'd just come from home he said it was even a bit more depressing not being with us for the holidays
duaghter is in rebellion stage right now so we're back to not speaking actaully i need the emotional break from her althou i miss g-son althou i'm not so thrilled with some of the things g-son has picked up from school but those attitudes are something which daughter will have to worry about if she doesn't handle it now she'll have big problems later on when the child gets to be a few years older thats the hard part of being a care-taker g-ma, having to deal with parental attitude she's not wise enough to realise that her rebellion still in progress is starting to show up in her child since his father's family has very corrupt attitudes (the babydaddy curses his mother all the time, g-son hasn't yet tried that with either of us but he's starting to do that with the other g-ma & she's allowing for it - it's just a matter of time before he'll try to get away with it at daughter's house as well) but daughter is just going to find out the hard way just like she learned the hard way when she got fired from her job for all of her lates & call outs from not being able to get up after partying too hard the nite before
http://SettingCaptivesFree.com has been keeping me positively busy I've been taking the United Front course for spouses who's spouses who are in sexual sin & other addictions when I'm done with the course I'll be taking the mentor's course so that way I'll be "officially" trained to do what I've been doing anyway helping people thru this time of crisis from a biblical perspective althou the course is mostly geared for people whose spouse is in repentance & trying to break from the sins I felt lead to take the course now becasue what so many spouses need to realise is that while God is dealing with their spouse they need to prepare themselves to get into proper line also with what God expects many of us LBS's aren't truely ready if our spouse were to stop suddenly & return home wanting to act as proper spouses it's something which Michelle does address in her books but people are so stuck in their hurts they can't truely understand that
I've found my home church & am getting settled into it 2 times a week I go intercessroy prayer for us here & who I've been chatting with I got a praise report from a girl who didn't even realise that I'd been having the IP group pray for
I'd had a small battle with depression recently i guess it was just the realisation that it's almost 4yrs in LimboLand byron had also out of the blue turned into super mr nastyman but i just wasn't able to take it for a bit & started to get heartbroke but God showed me thru a few signs that the mr super nastyman attitude was just byron's reaction to guilt the week prior monday byron had a temper tantrum in wal-mart when I asked him to buy $14 worth of stuff then last week tuseday he was ok in tone but attitude still showed when i brought up that I wanted to g back to the meetings we used to have the day prior to payday last week thursday he met me after work at the church but he sat for 15 minutes outside in his car fuming so while i was inside waiting for him he was working himself up outside we went to a new to us sports bar to sit, eat & suppose to go over the budget but byron was very unco-operative so nothing got discussed in the car ride back to my car i pointed out that we made no progress due to his unco-operative attitude
last friday was payday & to my surprise byron actually almost gave me all that he was suppose to & his attitude was softened towards me when i spoke to him on monday to ask byron what happened to him he said that he'd gotten up late so he was unable to drop off my printouts or the cd player i mentioned that one of the emails was a forward which I'd planned to bring to church to my surprise byron called me back about 2 hrs later asking what time was preyer group he was going to come to church & drop off the papers to me so I'd have what I need
ok folks God does work in mysterious ways one of the moocher gang come over to the house to work on the phone line it can be only God because Byron didn't send Dan to the house nor did he even schedule the work another guy was supposed to come out & passed the job to dan since the guy wasn't going to be able to get to the house prior to my needing to leave for church @ 6p Moocher Dan hasn't seen me in over 2 yrs maybe longer when he was at the door he said don't i know you? he looks so bad now that I wasn't sure who it was so i said whats your name he said Dan & i said you know me silly it's been a few years, I'm Byron's wife silly i teased him about getting him married off so he'd fatten up (the man is less than 40 & looks 50 & thin as a 6'2" bean pole) anyway it was funny for me to have Dan in the house i sorta knew that when byron was screwing around with robin it split their friendship so that Dan & byron weren't hanging so tightly from the few comments that dan made it was confirmation of it but as he left out I gave him a hug of friendship
ok this is one of those days that definately God's hand was working i called byron as I was about to leave for church to say thanks for the surprise byron hadn't scheduled for anyone to come to the house
during the prayer circle time byron showed up into church not quite sure what time he got there since i had my eyes closed i didn't hear the door open when he came in all i know is that when one of the girls coming in late joined in to the circle i opened my eyes & byron was sitting there quietly i stayed in the circle so i wouldn't interupt but i was distracted the whole prayer circle praying in front of people is sorta new to me so i've already been a bit self-concious to start but a wave hit me of being self-concious... was he there while i was praying for all of LBS's? our prayer leader broke from the circle to ask him if he wanted to join us byron said no he was waiting for me & she told him the times we meet & that he was invited to join us she said he said something but didn't recognise my name i said maybe he said "My Wife Theresa"? she said maybe that was it
oops walked away & forgot about finishing the post - it's now almost time for me to leave for church service 6:15p thursday nite august 24th 2006 let me post this & i hope that this isn't lost but i'm going to do a copy & paste just in case I'll finish my update hopefully when i get back after church tonite
Thanks for updating. Wow, Prodigal can park a ship -- I can't even imagine parking a truck! That must be a huge responsibility. I'm glad he'll be back to visit soon.
That was very interesting about your H being there for part of the prayer meeting! I wonder what he was thinking? Just sit back quietly and let these things unfold.
The United Front course sounds interesting too. I'm so glad to see you out there doing things for yourself -- what great changes there have been in your life!
aarrggh puter is screwing up big time i burned out the power supply but lucky for me byron was able to get it replaced
today is payday so I'm guessing the attitude i got from him this morning is due to him wanting to have fun for the holiday but rent & bills are going to put a damper on that for the weekend i asked him to stop by at 10am this morning but he didn't show up he didn't even bother to swing by the cigs & rent check & cash on his way into work either
my puter screwed up a 3.5 disk which i was trying to pull some digital pics from now it's not reading any 3.5 disks so i'm unable to update my blog with a bit of fussing at both daughter & byron some progress was made most of the fussing was due to daughter being smartmouthed & I didn't say much
the girls giggled a bit 'cause even not being dressed up "girlie girl" who hasn't seen me in a few months said that i looked differnat & definately sexy daughter said yeah now she's not wearing glasses she does look great ever since she's gotten the lasik surgery she's looking great
byron was heading out the door but turned around so i'm not sure if he heard them if he did he's not said anything about it
but let me get this finished up before the puter freezes up on me again
Quote: MMH,
Thanks for updating. Wow, Prodigal can park a ship -- I can't even imagine parking a truck! That must be a huge responsibility. I'm glad he'll be back to visit soon. I'm so looking forward to my babyboy's return yeah kinda scarey to think about parking something thats biger than the 3 family house I live in the funny part that he & i joke about is the fact that Prodigal can park the ship as big as it is & he doesn't have a drivers license for a car!
That was very interesting about your H being there for part of the prayer meeting! I wonder what he was thinking? Just sit back quietly and let these things unfold. i got so self-concious after seeing him sitting there i'm also wondering what was going thru his mind at the time it was kinda nice to see him looking interested rather than angry thou guess God answered a question for me thou byron made love to me 2 times last week & stayed the nite once! so althou byron's not actting like he's coming home, God's working on him
neither byron or the kids have given their lives to Jesus as of yet but the kids at least haven't ruled it out for the future unfortunately they've got that idea of i'll do it later but daughter is bringing g-son to church this sunday & she does remeber the preacher who we had gone to before getting married to bryon she said that she's interested in attending services a bit more often since she liked his teaching style which is backed up in the bible she says that sunday she's going to be sure to attend since this service is both communion as well as the annointing service for students including college & even us who are taking online courses
The United Front course sounds interesting too. I highly reccomend this FREE Course to everyone whose spouse has committed adultery
I'm so glad to see you out there doing things for yourself -- what great changes there have been in your life! i've gotten so much better at looking past the mess byron's stuck me with setting boundaries has been the hardest lesson for daughter
still difficult to deal with is paydays when byron's on his selfish mode i'm praying that today isn't going to be that way but unfortunaity it does appear to shaping out that way
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oops walked away & forgot about finishing the post - it's now almost time for me to leave for church service 6:15p thursday nite august 24th 2006 let me post this & i hope that this isn't lost but i'm going to do a copy & paste just in case