I didn't get my invite to the makeup party which I really need I have a black eye I stepped on the I think it is called a hoe? and wacked myself in the side of the face good look for my first day at work and could have done with the makeup practice to cover it
Ouch. Yeah you coulda used it. Bet that makes you even more interesting to them huh.
Bj was right. She just didn't know how to use it. She's still unsure of it even after we watched the video together and experimented. She's gonna go learn from a girlfriend.
This is good. Her wanting to be more feminine. I like it
Well tonight she decided to drive up the hill to "check on the house"
I felt it coming. Don't know how but I knew.
Everything has been great. Things have gotten better over the last few weeks. We really spend a lot of quality time together.
She kisses me more often and it is more relaxed.
Tonight either she really needed to go check on the house, needs to get more of her stuff, or needed a little time alone. Generally when she hs done that she comes back and things are a little better.
I was having a little bit of an emotional day today. Don't know why, no reason, but some of the concerns of the past were coming up for me. Just stuff I guess.
Anyway she seemed to be almost sorry to go. Some of her bags stayed here. Hoping more comes down the hill than went up.
The waves roll in, the waves roll out...each wave comes that much closer as the tide turns...the waves beigin to lap at your feet and you stand still....still in the quiet of the night, savoring the pleasure of the water on your feet...X knows the ocean cannot be chased and is content to abide peacefully and let it come to him on her own schedule and rhythm...softly softly softly letting the waves become him and he the waves 'til all is one.....
Well she said she was "thinking about going back up there tonight. Said she got a good night sleep there and was well rested.
I m not real happy about that.
I can see absolutely nothing in the recent few weeks that hasnt gone perfect for us as a couple. We get along beautifully and Ive really learned how to listen and all that good stuff.
who knows, and I know, ya just cant figure it.
I feel I need a little change of strategy. Not sure because what I have been doing has appeared to be working.
But then again maybe she just needs another good night sleep.
So after we closed up shop and everyone left I walked into her office and firmly asked what she was doing. She replied that she would work late and then after a few seconds pause "and sleep here". I said ok and walked out.
Dont really know what to think of it. A little blip.
Walking in and asking was a bit of a 180 for me. Used to be Id skate around it.
Ive noticed our interplay to be changing lately. I make more decisions and am more in control. She is allowing it to happen. Something I read last night in Michelles book really hit home. she was talking about the seesaw and relating it to control. When one person just goes along with things the other becomes controlling. I had never thought of the seesaw effect applied to that. But its obvious.
I was a real conflict avoider. That has changed a lot and I plan on it changing more. It has felt really good when I've dealt with a situation immediatly rather than stew on it. I actually kinda enjoyed it.
I'm realizing more and more that I need to take charge of more things. It has been happening and I think doing more of it will be beneficial in so many ways.
wow - maybe just maybe the get a better sleep thing may be the first teeny tiny step to her jumping on the bed and saying 'hey move over'
and my black eye well I managed to cover it with makeup but the swelling well that was a different matter I figure they havn't seen me before so prolly just think I got a fat face (on one side only) and hopefully as the swelling as gone down gradually they don't really notice
well first three days ok - learning policy and procedure got my first client a nine year - developmentally delayed and exhibiting very bad behaviour (funny he gave his mother a black eye when he threw the telephone at her) so far good and payday is next week yeee haaa
That's funny I replied to this post before but it didn't post. Oops
Anyway to recap. Everything is still the same in the R. Everything seems very good. I don't know what that heading up the hill thing was about but it was short lived. We went to dinner last night and stayed out late. Shouldn't have but it was fun. we become accustomed to 3 hour dinners on the weekends.
BJ, I was thinking about you and your black eye. I was just wondering what you were going to tell them. I'm sure they have a hard enough time figuring you out anyway.
I teach a lot of problem children too. But I have an advantage. They think I'll beat them :-)
Taught a 16 year old gangster type last week. All the gangster clothes and attitude. Really threw him when I firmly made him remove his bling bling. I have a skill in converting those types. I throw them around a little on the mat but I also show that I care. You'd be amazed how I can change their attitude. The grandmother was ecstatic when the boy left with his pants pulled up (normally their half off gangster style) and standing up straight. Too bad he had to go back to juvy for a bit. but we'll be seeing him afterwards. It's funny my wife and the other students love to peek around the corner when I handle a student like that. They laugh for hours.
When I look around and see some of the ones that started off that way and are now clean wholesome kids. That's when I feel truly successful.
I gotta tell you watching my wife strut around in tight jeans yesterday was hard. She is so hot it drives me wild. Damn I hope she gets in my bed soon.
