I was not going to post too much anymore because of the way I allowed things in my life to turn out, but after reading Amy's comments it really gave me a re-newed perspective on my own sitch. I lost compassion and respect for the one person I will truly love in this world my W. Thanx Amy and TMU!
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
woow...sorry don't know why it duplicated my posts...
atta a boy Tiimmay! Stay with us...keep strong...we are all swaping turns on this rollercoaster...my C says that we grow from the pain...I sure hope we are going to get something out of this in the end!!
Quote: woow...sorry don't know why it duplicated my posts...
atta a boy Tiimmay! Stay with us...keep strong...we are all swaping turns on this rollercoaster...my C says that we grow from the pain...I sure hope we are going to get something out of this in the end!!
Thanx Vince. Still pulling myself up. Looked in the mirror this evening and did not like what I saw and where I was going. Sorry TMU for jumping in! Hope you are doing OK
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
Well, another wonderful weekend is underway. I survived last night without any R talk and while I am really emotional this morning (she's going to the "gym") I am dealing. I did backslide a bit making an off-hand comment about the whole family going to the gym. It pissed her off. She asked why I needed to go when she did. I said it has been months since we went together and she said yes. I know I should not take pokes like that. It's the old me and I don't like it. I am going to make damn sure I don't let it happen again. I am going to a movie this afternoon and the bookstore to get some new reading material (5 love languages/4 agreements/I don't have to make everything alright/women are from venus...). I am going to try but once again those feelings of "lighting up are creeping in." It would be SO much easier to just end this...or so I think.
I am going to try but once again those feelings of "lighting up are creeping in." It would be SO much easier to just end this...or so I think.
TMU
Trust me you don't want to try and end this. I tried and I hate myself because of it. I let my emmotions take control of my actions. I truly regret what I did. Keep going TMU
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
Keep the faith and keep up the good work. Giving up would only cause you even more grief!
Hope the rest of your weekend goes well.
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
Tim my man! Glad to see you back in the fold. You've had quite a week and I was really concerned about you and your sitch. Its good to see that you have come around full circle. Take care of yourself!
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
I know I don't post a lot on your threads, but I do read up on your situations. I wanted to say that it is so encouraging to see that there are good men out there who do care about their marriages and their families. Your tenacity is commendable! Please keep it up. I know it's very difficult, but you will come out of this better people no matter what happens. Hugs! Hope
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
Thank you all. I am really feeling it right now. I know I don't want to react to these feelings. I am just so tired. I am doing what I can for me and the boys and then I look at her, how happy she seems when I know she's going to him and I have to leave the room. She has the strength of a goddess if she's been feeling this kind of pain for years as she says she has. I do not share that attribute. Yes Hope, I do care about my marriage and love my wife unconditionally. I am starting to love myself more and realize that I don't want this anymore. I am going to stick it out. I have to. The reasons why are becoming less clear. Thanks again for the support. This feeling must be in the air or something. Vince, Tim, Me, Frank...
TMU, I don't normally post on your thread but wanted to encourage you especially now. You're still with W even though its very tough emotionally on you. I know how hard it is, my WAW stayed for 11 months before she finally left for OM/BIL. That time prepared me for the time I'm in now. Detaching now seems like a 'natural' transition after learning to love unconditionally for so long. Detaching, while very difficult gradually becomes a little easier as time passes. Still difficult to do consistently and effectively. Keep working on it, as I will too.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Patience in not just a virtue, its a necessity. Ask God to give you more of it.
