Honey, I love your lips. When I look at you and see you smile it reminds me of how we used to kiss and just hold each other. I wish we could do that right now. I love you.
Not sure how old you are...but when I was growing up one of my favorite cartoons was Pepe Le Pew...the skunk who fell in love with Penelope the cat...if you remember this cartoon at all you will remember that Pepe would go to the ends of the earth to prove his love for Penelope and whenever he would get her in his arms, finally...what did she do...she did everything she could to wiggle out of his arms...she was suffocated. She couldn't wait to get away from him...I do believe there was one episode were Pepe played hard to get and Penelope did come closer until he got too close again for her comfort level.
That is my best analogy of a WAS and what they are thinking...just call me Penelope...damn...I keep forgetting to change my Screen Name...
Dearest, I f@#%ing hate what you are doing to me right now. You have no right to take my heart and stomp on it. If you want to sow some oats, move to a farm. I hate this so much you will never know. If you get what you think you want, it serves you right because you surely don't deserve me!
Husband, I never thought I would reach this place in my heart. For some reason, that I do not quite understand just yet, God placed you in my life. I have loved you and hated you and everything in between. The most intensive emotions of my life have been wrapped around you in some way.
I have been fond of saying and believing that everything happens for a reason. After all this, I still believe that.
If there was some way, I truly wish I could save you from yourself. I know that is not possible. Knowing that doesn't take the hurt away of watching you self-destruct.
I thank you for the 3 wonderful sons you have given me. It breaks my heart that you really don't know them. I will take to my grave the regret that I chose you for their father. I hope they will forgive me for that. I hope I can forgive myself someday.
I know your choice to leave me was something you had to do for yourself. I know you didn't set out to hurt me or destroy your family. You would have to actually think about someone other than yourself to have those feelings. However, what you inadvertently did, what you accomplished without even trying is.....you gave me back my life.
And for that, I thank you.
Your wife
Always do right. This will gratify some people, and astonish the rest. Mark Twain
You see spitfire, I think that's important for us to see, especially the newbies because it really goes to the heart and soul of why we are here. Really I just want everyone to get it out and since their WASes may never see these words, at least we, as a community, can read them and know the depth of our feelings.
TMU
P.S. As if we didn't already know there were deep feelings here...lol
Justed wanted to ask you a question? Why don't you pull your head out of you a#$#$%! Once you do you can see the man in front of you who loves you unconditionally, and wants to grow with you and experience everything life has to offer! Our 2 amazing children love seeing their Mommy and Daddy together expressing what true love is all about! Oh yeah you have trouble seeing that because you have feelings for a man who has a poor job, no ambition, recovering drug addict, current alcoholic, and gambler who by the way controls and manipulates worse than I ever did!
Love you!
OK that was kinda harsh but she still hasn't called!
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
No, Tim, it's not harsh, it's how you feel and it's perfectly ok to feel that way. We have to remember that. It's OK TO FEEL certain ways, just not to express that feeling to our bitc....er.....WAW. I am angry a lot of the time too. If you read my thread, I am REALLY angry and lost right now.
If you want to go, then go. I can't stop you and more than that, I want you to now. Go be with the wonderful new friends and man you enjoy so much. Leave us behind. I will care for the boys and give them twice the love you have given them over the past 5 years! We don't F@##ing need you. We don't want you. Things are SO great out there for you right now, it would be a damn shame for you to miss out on that. I will send you pictures of the kids as they grow up into men and espouse the values of love, honor, commitment and honesty I will instill in them, qualities you do not have. I do not hate you. I pity you. I pity that you don't realize what you have. You can't even bring yourself to take the risk of us. That's truly sad. I do wish you well on your journey. Talk to a lawyer, get the papers and I will sign them that day.
