First an apology, Sorry guys I was so busy before Christmas that I didn't have time to let you all know that I would be offline over the Christmas break. I do all this from work as I don't really have time at home and if I do I have to fight the kids
WOO HOO...it's about freakin' time...had us all worried...you have much to catch up on...chocolate, swirls, martinis, panties, tiramisu...what have I left out?
So good to hear from you...looking forward to playing catch up. Now this is GAL...she forgets all about her friends on DB...you go girl!!
Thanks Lisa I will be catching up on everyone's threads over the course of today and tomorrow as I know I have missed alot and it is gonna take a bit of time to get back in the loop......
BB START A NEW THREAD PLEASE AS I WISH TO POST ON YOUR THREAD....
O.K. now for an update.
This is going to be a condensed version as for some reason when I am typing letters keep dropping off my words. I am not sure if it is this site or my computer but being a touch typist I find it extremely frustrating as I have to go real slow and look at each word.....Aaaaaaaarggghhhhhhh
Now Christmas was fairly good. My H came over Christmas Eve ............. I can't do this its gonna take too long I will try and update you all later or tomorrow, this is so ridiculous and I can't spend all day on the computer, sorry guys but until this speeds up I can't handle it especially when I have to give a rather long update......
Well Hello BB, how are you my friend? I have missed you too and all the others here. O.K. let's see if I can get this update done. I will just have to persevere I think or it will never get done.
Yesterday I didn't really use my computer as I was too busy sorting everything out from my 3 weeks off but today will be a different matter now that I have organised the office again. If this slow typing thing continues in my normal work the IT guy will be getting a call.
Oh hang on I just had an idea.....Yep that's it all back to normal now, would you believe I needed to change the batteries in my keyboard, gosh I can be vague sometimes...
Now as I started before H came over Christmas Eve and stayed and we did the present opening thing with the kids and family and then around 10.30 I left with the kids for my Dad's place for lunch. H went to his best mates place as he didn't feel comfortable coming to Dad's just yet.
We then met up at my Mum's for tea so that was all good.
H has been ringing everyday and coming over everyday either before or after work. He has been staying about twice a week and 6 months ago I would have been over the moon at his behaviour, but that was 6 months ago.
I am finding it really difficult to decide whether I am happy being with him as I really don't know at the moment. He is making an effort and doing mostly the right things but something is missing. I have not mentioned this to him because I don't know if it will pass or not so I guess I am just in limbo land at the moment.
The kids and I seem to cope fine without him and things are a lot calmer when he isn't around. He does have a shorter fuse than myself which can cause tension.
I will just keep plodding along at the moment and try and make up my mind. I guess there is no great hurry but I do want to make 2006 a much better year.
So I hope everyone had a great festive season and I will slowly catch up on everyone's posts but it will take a little bit as you all have a few pages each for me to get through until I am up to date.
Will catch up with you all soon on your various threads....Kim
Ha ha you have quite a challenge catching up on 3 weeks worth.
I am finding it really difficult to decide whether I am happy being with him as I really don't know at the moment. He is making an effort and doing mostly the right things but something is missing. I have not mentioned this to him because I don't know if it will pass or not so I guess I am just in limbo land at the moment.
Kim ~ do you think the ads have fully kicked in? Do you mean that the spark between you isn't there?
Hang in there, and do what's best for you. Yes, 2006 is going to be a better year!
Quote: He is making an effort and doing mostly the right things but something is missing. I have not mentioned this to him because I don't know if it will pass
Hey, Kim...let me just say that when XH and I reconciled the first time, I would have said there was something "missing" just a bit...it was the trust and my certainty that he loved me. It did return, but it took some time...and when it did, it was sweeter than ever!
Kismet yes I think his AD's have kicked in now as he doesn't seem to fly off the handle as quickly now and last week he did and when I asked him if he had been taking his tabs he said not for 5 days as he had to get script filled. I pointed out to him the difference without them and I think he could then see it too. He is better again now as is back on them.
You don't see huge changes with the meds but just a slightly calmer person who copes a little better.
VJ thankyou for that I think I really needed to hear it and you explained it exactly. I am feeling all that you said but you give me hope. It is always so nice when someone puts into words your exact feelings so thankyou again, I will be stopping over your way shortly. It is taking me so long to catch up with everyone.....
