Hope, BIG HUGS!! I am so sorry for the hurt you are feeling. I wish there was an easy way to take it all away. Some way to know the answers, know how things will turn out, etc. Just know that you are a very strong individual, you have a beautiful spirit. Hang in there, take care!
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
I think we are just exchanging our good and bad days. Here yesterday I thought about giving up and now today you are. Yesterday was a good day for you and today is a good day for me. Maybe one day we will both come on here with a good day.
No, I am giving up. I'm letting him go. I will not play this game of lets see how bad I can treat her before she breaks. I'll let him stay until after the holidays. I need his help financially right now. But after the holidays I won't. I hate that I will be losing my D9. I hate that more than losing him. I know that he will soon figure out what he's lost, but I don't plan on being around at that point. He's made his choice. It's not me, it's not our family. It's been almost five months and it's only gotten worse. We are not even friends anymore. I love him but I will not let him destroy me. He's not worth losing myself over. And honestly, if he woke up tomorrow and told me he was sorry and than he wanted this, I don't know that I could do it. Too much has happened. My feelings have changed.
Hopefully you all can work something out with D9. I'm sure he won't take her away completely. He has to think of her feelings too.
Like I said before, someone once told me a person knows when it is over and I guess you have gotten to that point. I am sorry you are having to go through this again. Even though you aren't married this time it doesn't make it any easier.
I really don't know what to say. I am at a loss for words right now. All I can say is good luck with whatever you do.
I can sympathize with what you are going through it is a tough road to go down... I'm there right now. I too have given up, too many things have happened and like you my feelings have changed. Stay strong and try to stay positive of course some days are going to be better than others, for myself I just picture a life without HIS drama and that's good for me.
Welcome confused2005! Sorry to hear you're anywhere near where I am in this crappy mess.
Well it's working. Well not working, but happening just like I figured it would. I pull away and guess who becomes Mr.Nice. In the past I would be so excited. Baby steps! But they aren't really. It's the typical cycle of a CP. They don't want you but they don't want to let you go either.
He's called me twice. Very sweet and nice. I am becoming the queen of one word sentences. I show no emotion to him when I talk. Isn't it horrible that for him to be nice to me, I have to become cold to him. His lose. Too little, too late.
I am happy that you have resolution. You are so strong and determined.
I am sorry for the hurt and heartache I am sure you are feeling. I'm here for you, you know that.
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.
You know what? For the first time in months, I'm not hurting. I'm a little sad, for my kids, but I feel very at peace with things right now. I have a feeling the rest of the week is going to be calm and XH is going to be behaving for a while. I have so much planned between now and next Monday, I don't have time to even worry about his drama.
But thank you for taking the time to stop by and for being here for me. I honestly do feel better now. (Remind me of this when it comes time for him to go!)
