Had a lot of dreams. They are now changing. I work as a full time firefighter. Had a lot of hobbies but drifted away from them the past few years while I was married and going to school. Had to give up some fun things to do that. I didn't mind. I do like to golf and Hunt or at least walk in the woods. Wife ended up with my dogs. Working 24 hr shifts, I couldn't leave them home alone.
I will get my dreams back. Not so sure about my XW but who knows. I figure just about the time I give up something will happen. That is another thing I have to keep reminding myself of. You never know when you will meet another. It always seems when you are least looking.
Jak466
State Trooper: Do you feel this vehicle is safe for highway travel?
Del Griffith: Yes sir. Yes. Yes I do. I mean she may not look like much but she'll get you where you wanna go.
I actually do know....sort of. What he has told me and our sessions with the therapist. The worst part of that is the same thing I told him years ago... before we got married. Which was " I know what I want, I know who I am. When you figure it out, I'll be right here." Word for word. Maybe that is the deal. Sh*it I don't know. What I do know is this whole thing sucks and I sometimes just want off the ride. I miss me. I obviously can not help him figure this out. He has to do that for himself. I am not in the picture. In the other picture is me... It is easy for me to say, but not so easy to do.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
True...I guess I do understand what you are saying. My only thing is what am I missing.. I so don't want to miss a thing. I love life and everything that goes with it. I always wonder what I am doing wrong. I know the answer, but It does not stop me from wondering.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
Your right. The clech'es only take you so far. The biggest thing you will learn from the books is you have to make yourself happy. You say you miss you. Find you. Do what makes you happy. A friend from here keeps telling me confidence. If you have it they are going to want to be part of that. It makes sense. I am trying to not let my XW know the pain I feel. I try to keep things upbeat and happy when I email her but she doesn't reply very often. That brings me down. Write a list of personal goals for yourself. Get feeling better about yourself. I just bought a motorcycle. It is taking a little of the edge off of feeeling like a big pile of S#!t.
Jak466
State Trooper: Do you feel this vehicle is safe for highway travel?
Del Griffith: Yes sir. Yes. Yes I do. I mean she may not look like much but she'll get you where you wanna go.
LOL. I just bought a jag. Funny how we do these things.I did just because it made me feel good. What kind of motercycle did you buy? You are a wise man Jac.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
I don't know about wise but I am street smart I have a 99 Kawasaki Vulcan Classic 1500cc. It's a cruiser model. Looks like a Harley but rides nicer with better millage and less engine problems. Don't get me wrong, I love Harleys. This is my first Bike though except a little 450 I had back in 83. I bought it from one of the other Firefighters and it is in excellent shape with low miles. I am very happy with it
YOU BOUGHT A JAG! I love jags. Really like the older models.
Jak466
State Trooper: Do you feel this vehicle is safe for highway travel?
Del Griffith: Yes sir. Yes. Yes I do. I mean she may not look like much but she'll get you where you wanna go.
yeah I love the older ones too, but it is a 2005. My dream car. I guess we all have to do those things for ourselves somtimes. Sweet ride if you know what I mean. Okay you are so getting me off the feeling bad and lonely thing. I almost feel guilty. Thats okay. It feels good to talk or I guess type to a real person.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
