SM, Your post left me in tears. Your W was a smart woman to see the OM for the loser he was. Any man who knowingly tries to make another man's wife his lover is a loser.
csw, I pray that you have a happy life, despite what your W decides to do. I hope your soiree is a success.
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"
W never came home last night. She told me she would be home when I asked yesterday morning. She never called. She is a big girl now, and I will no longer be able to worry about her when she shooses to be rude and fails to treat me with the courtesy I would extend to any person on the street.
There is much to do today, and the sun is shining brightly. Too bad ya'll live so far away....
Cine, I was struck by SM's wonderful post. I certainly hope it is relavant to my sitch. It is definitely the outcome I wish for. I am certain that I will have a full and rewarding life depsite W's choices. I will make it my priority to do so. What sort of man would I be if I let another's poor choices determine my fate? Certainly not the man I aspire to be.
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A good time was had by all today. It is quite funny to watch kids reactions when they get here, when they see all of the big boulders and great climbing trees. There were five kids here today, and the oldest three barely came down from the rocks the whole day, even eating dinner on top. When they weren't on the rocks they were chasing the cat or climbing the trees.
There was too much food, but it was tasty, so I look forward to the leftovers. The beer was good, but a bit on the undercarbonated side, not unlike Guiness Stout in many ways, minus the nitrogen head. I like it better fizzier, so I will crank it up a bit.
W was not mentioned or discussed once, the whole evening. The nice thing is, it didn't even seem like we were avoiding an elephant in the room. There were other things to talk about, like recumbent mountain bikes, a month long trip to Germany and France (sadly not me, but my bike tour friends) skinned knees and the crazy neighborhood dog that looks like a mini pig and can climb up a 5 foot tall rock.
I am glad I had the friends over today. It was great to have something to plan for, and to share my time with good people. I will have to have a repeat soon (lots of homebrew left)
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
csw, Glad that your shindig went well. Vanilla stoli is my fave poison, but you are making homebrew sound pretty tasty. I'm thinking about getting my feet wet with a batch of root beer for my kids this summer.
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"
Cine, I have yet to make root beer, but it is one of my favorites. I didn't know you used your feet to make it...
It is a beauoooooootiful day. I have the house all clean, (except for the moping...) Now I think I will play in the garden.
I am sure I posted this poem before, but here it is again. I think of it when the weather is this nice, the tree leaves are finally opening, and my hope is floating.
#95
i thank you God for this most amazing day: for the leaping greenly sprits of trees and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today, and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth day of life and of love and of wings: and of the gay great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing breathing any- lifted from the no of all nothing- human merely being doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
Still no word from W, since Thursday night. I assume she is still alive. I found out OM is getting a new apartment, very near W's work and SIL's house. How convenient. The good part is, the people he is living with now are throwing him out because of his illicit activities, and want him gone before his lease starts.. He had to beg to stay until that time, after his W freaked out at his suggestion of pitching a tent in their yard. What a scab picking peice of work. He made that suggestion this morning, probably timed to ruin her Mother's day. I am glad I called to check on her, as she was quite depressed. I hope I managed to cheer her up a bit.
Any stress or roadblocks that can interfere with their plans are OK by me! Lets hope for a few more glitches along the way. I honestly want W to be happy, but I want her to be happy on her own terms, and not under this guys thumb. I don't know what is left of our R to save, but I am here if the time comes to explore that option.
My head and heart are strong, and my course is plotted. I know there is a very real possibility that my M is permanently out of commission. I also know that I have behaved throghout this ordeal in a manner that makes me proud. My confidence is finally returning, a little bit more each day. I will look back without shame for the way I have handled this difficulty. I will be able to look forward with hope, because I know that I can be a darn good husband. (let's all pray that W realizes it soon)
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"The Last Of The Unplucked Gems"
Violins and tambourines This is what we think they mean It's hard to say, it's sad but true I'm kinda dumb and so are you
When the mystique varies thus You can send a man to bury us It's hard to say, it's sad but true I'm kinda dumb and so are you
The last of the unplucked gems The last of the unplucked gems The last of the unplucked gems The last of the unplucked gems
