I have made it through another day....Hip Hip Horray! I didnt see H today but I did talk to him....but guess what I didnt let him get to me. H is suppose to come over tomorrow night to see D1...I am determined to stay focused on me and D1 and not let any emotions get in the way. I do still love my hubby...but I deserve his love back and without that it isnt worth it. I hate to hear about OW and I refuse to let her into my thoughts....well, at least for today. I have decided to take one day at a time and see what happens. H might just lose out in the long run but I cant force anything. I think that my head is attaching back onto my neck. Please dont get me wrong I want my M but I know that I deserve happiness.
Thank you all for your help...oh! My mother in law told me that H thought that I looked a little sad in my eyes although I was smiling. Does anyone know how I can hide that...I thought that I was doing well. Thank you all!
Ok....H picked up D1 and took her to dinner last night. H kept telling me how great I looked and we talked and started messing around. When things started getting good H told me that we cant do this. Do you think that is because he wants to be faithful to the OW that he is supposedly not seeing anymore or is it because he doesnt love me. I know that he wanted it but I think that something is going on in his head. I will not let it happen again. Am I suppose to be sad that it stopped or just let it go. I dont want him to feel uncomfortable or he might never come over again to spend time w/ D1 so we have a little time together. I feel so dumb. I know he doesnt want to talk about it. H called me last night but I didnt mention it. What should I do now? Please give me advise!
Just let it go. Something is going on in his head. It is not you. Keep looking good, he is noticing. Keep DBing when he is around. Don't drive yourself crazy trying to figure why he stopped. You may never know, he probably doesn't know why. You did good in not mentioning it. I would not bring it up and act like it didn't happen. Continue to do things for you and D, be strong.
Do you think that is because he wants to be faithful to the OW that he is supposedly not seeing anymore or is it because he doesnt love me.
maybe he couldn't get an erection due to some physical problem and was too embarrassed to say so. Maybe he just didn't want to give "false hope" blah, blah. Maybe he felt bloated and didn't think he'd be all the good in bed at the moment. Maybe he forgot to bring back an overdue book to the library and needed to get there... maybe it's better not to analyze things, huh? Look at it this way: you fooled around a little, then he stopped. That's all it is.
Am I suppose to be sad that it stopped or just let it go. I dont want him to feel uncomfortable or he might never come over again to spend time w/ D1 so we have a little time together. I feel so dumb. I know he doesnt want to talk about it. H called me last night but I didnt mention it. What should I do now? Please give me advise!
Not mentioning it was smart. Let it go and drop it - and stop thinking those kinds of unproductive thoughts. Instead, think positive, new, wonderful, thoughts, such as, "hey! it'll be NYsurvivor's birthday in about 6 months, that means I can spend 6 full months thinking about all the wonderful gifts I'd like to send him". See? isn't that much better and automatically makes you smile? For your birthday, I'm going to get you some apostrophes.
Thanks for the input. You are a card! LOL! I wonder what I am going to get you....lol! I understand what you are saying about analyzing his action. I think it was for false hope.....yikes...I just thought that it would bring us together...closer...but believe me...Its his loss!
Ny birthday...6 months away.....thats whats on my mind!
I had an alright night and I am happy to state that now one tear rolled down my face. I still want H and I to be together but I am trying to detach and GAL more. Trying to stay strong but stay with love in my heart. H birthday is Thursday and I am so sad that I cant spend it with him. Gosh! I hate all of this stuff!
