Thanks! I'm not going anywhere--I'm going to need this board for a long time and I've made a couple good friends here and I want to know what happens with them.
So just act as if he is in Daytona this weekend and you can't contact him even if you want to. And go out and do something fun for you.
I wonder about Lost too. And haven't seen Shawn for a long time. Hope all is well with them. Poor meanmydogs (mea) is having a rough time.
Do you ever go back and read some of your old stuff--you have come such a long way! Thanks for being here!
Just drove 30 miles to have lunch w/W and S5. It was very nice. Got a nice little kiss after lunch.
ML last night, she still has major comfortablabity issues. She has told me she is scared I will leave if she doesn't ML. I've told her that is not the case, but it is important to me. I try not to pressure her, she really does pressure herself. Once things get started things are fine.
Over all had a great weekend - a little/semi-big fight on Saturday where we both expressed hurt feelings about the past. We came to an agreement that we have hurt feelings and we are sorry that we have hurt each other. One good thing that came of this is my W expressed her hurt feelings. Alot of times she just gets angry and doesn't express her true feelings. I have explained to her that getting those bad feelings out is the best way not to build up resentment. It does make me feel closer to her when we communicate on that level.
She did get me a card on Saturday saying how happy she is that I'm in her life.
W said last night she wants to have another baby in the next couple of years. Her feelings change on this topic daily, but I can feel her love for me getting stronger. There is not greater love in the world than bringing a kid in the world together.
Something I heard
Resentment = It is like you drinking poision and waiting for the other person to die.
Akron, wow, things are going great for you two! Very inspirational! I am finding it a little hard to be together again. I knew it would be and I'm working hard. Some days I just really worry about getting too comfortable and going back to the old me! I really don't want that old me back in my life. I'm not totally new, but I'm working on it and looking back I really didn't like the old me.
H doesn't say anything cuz he just isn't good at expressing himself. But, I know he is back because he wants to be and he is committed to us too, he just can't say it. And I know better than to try to drag it out of him!
Thanks for posting, Akron, and reminding us how good it can be!
Things are still going in the right direction. I HAVE THE TOOLS TO CONTROL MY ACTIONS. Sometimes I mess up, but most of the time I know what I'm doing. Heard this last night at M class at the church. When you get upset your IQ drops 30points.
Friday - got home from work with a little resentment - W wanted to go shopping by herself - I was hurt she didn't want to spend the afternoon together. Turned into a little fight, but DBing and communication skills got us thru it with very little problem. W explained that sometimes I make her feel rushed when shopping and explained that we where getting a baby-sitter tonight. Then we where going to get movies and stay at home with just her and I. I chilled out. It nice expressing myself with I statement that are not attacking. My W has learned the same trick. Got movies and had a nice evening.
Sat - ML first thing in the morning. Went and got S5 and went to Easter Egg hunt at the church. Then went to the mall and test drove cars. We went home and drank a little and downloaded music with our new cable modem. This was a great time- just hanging out.
Sunday - Went to Church and family Easter dinner - Played Dominoes with W and S5, Relaxed, cleaned, just had a nice day.
Monday - This moring I had a flat tire at 6am and W let me take her car. My Father picked up W at 7am and let her use his car so she could go to work. I talked to W a couple of times. Then I sented her this email. "Once again I wanted to say Thank you for this moring. I can't speak for u, but my life is so much better when we are getting along good. Thanks for being you."
Goals for the Week -
No little fights
Do 5 loads of Laundry
Eat at home 4 nights
W initaite ML
Write W one letter in the Morning
Get W back on my insurance
Slowly