Thinking this morning I'm not sure how to just face forward. I feel like so much of who I am is the person that I became after marrying D.
The person I thought he was taught me so many things, about life, love, fun, computers. Just about everything. I feel he is still a part of me, but he is gone and I am not sure how to address those feelings. It is like a part of me died and I am not totally sure how to go forward without her.
Sometimes I wonder if any of what I shared of my life with him still feels like it is a part of him? Something I will never know, but wonder.
Tonight there are nine of us going to Actors Theatre to see, 'A Tuna Christmas'. I don't really feel like going but the tickets are bought and M is really looking forward to it so no way would I back out. Besides I will probably enjoy it once I am there.
Then this Sunday is the party that was supposed to be getting back into seeing friends again for me. I planned this before the mess this past weekend and I am not really in a party mood but M talked me out of canceling saying it would be a good distraction for me.
Just seems lots going on in my life right now and I am struggling to focus and keep it all balanced and going in the right direction. I am also not thinking too clearly this week so shouldn't make too many decisions!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Pam - just stopping by to point out that these feelings are coinciding with you decreasing the Zoloft - I really just don't think you are ready to be off it yet.
Good morning Pam - I am sorry but I have not been following your thread lately but did want to pop in and and say Hi and to let you know that you and all the other friends I have here on the BB are still in my prayers.
Is a psychologist the only type of counselor that is able to prescribe medication?
I am planning to talk with the lady I see next week, but I know she isn't a psychologist.
I have another 3 months worth of it that I got when D asked if I had checked on rather the insurance would still cover it. I went ahead and did the mail order and they sent me 3 months at a time. By the end of that time possibly I could afford a few more months to try stepping it down again.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
In my state, only Psychiatrists and other MDs (and DOs)can prescribe, but psychologists do have prescribing rights in some states I think. I don't believe any other kind of counselor could prescribe - but your family physician could refill your meds on your therapist's recommendation - most would do that.
I am scheduled to talk to a lady that sounds very nice this coming Tuesday and am actually looking forward to it to see if it will help me just untangle a few of the things that seem confussing in my head.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Quote: Time to notice that the glass is half full, what??
I believe you may be right! The problem is keeping the regrets and sad thoughts away or processing them on through quickly and not letting them settle in.
I guess I need to tell them my new house doesn't have the room for them that PK did!
Taking a break from cleaning and organizing!
But I am not as stressed as I used to get about having people over. Maybe I no longer feel so strongly that everything has to be perfect and that I have to prove myself to people. They will either like it or not. I don't mean I am not putting some work and thought into it but not the same stress as I did in the past. Let's hope that carries through tomorrow!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
