Today I have called a couple of moving companies to get estimates on moving the last of my furniture. The heaviest stuff that I don't think mom, dad and I can get by ourselves.
I have felt most of this week like I just want to sit down and cry, very tired and stressed. I think part of it is hormones and part of it is trying to keep up with two houses now.
I spend the night at the new house but each morning drive back to the other one, feed the dogs and get ready for work. I feel it is just starting to run me down as I try to keep both houses looking organized and cleaned. Plus the shelties aren't adjusting too great to the new house, they bark at every little noise when we are staying there.
David is being typical David and doesn't return e-mails or phone calls. He is doing things on the house and doesn't let me know anything. I want to get out and just drop this rope. No matter what he does with the house I can't control it other than I have to sign before he can sell it. I just need the stress of his inconsiderate behavior where I don't have to deal with it.
I do like my new house, like the old one better but this new one is nice. They were in Tuesday and got some of it finished up and next Tuesday should finish the last of the work needing done on it.
Right now I am very much into wanting to crawl into a hole mode and I can't do that as I have too much to do to finish up this move.
So I am just trying to keep pushing those feelings back and focus on essentials that need done.
I am thinking positively that once I complete this move my emotions will start to level back out a bit.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Moving is stressful at the best of times, and you are moving at the worst of times, so don't be hard on yourself, but do look for ways to think positive. Even in the midst of this pressure, take time to meet a friend, go out for a meal, whatever.
You'll make it to the other side!
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
Where is Tal with her chocolate coated Advil when I need it???
Good Morning everyone,
I have decided today to remember to laugh at myself and remind myself that these feelings will pass. David used to say tell me again in a couple of weeks how you feel about something as it will be different by then and make more sense!
I am making progress that I can see now. My yard has finally had dirt added and graded so the shelties can't get out under the back fence. Yesterday they rolled out the seed again so I moved my sprinkler back there to start watering it. Today or Monday the guy is going to start on my fence. Yippee!!!
Breeze is feeling better but today ends her antibiotics so I really hope she doesn't get worse again.
My new neighbor and I have been out to breakfast 2 or 3 times and she is letting them in my house on her days off to do the work on it so I don't have to miss any work. She even mowed my front yard the other day!!!
My vet and I met and had breakfast a couple of weeks ago before my appointment with FB and I had taken B in just to weigh her and she had gained a whole pound!!!
David was over a week or so ago and trimmed the shrubs on one side and the front of PK and there was a message on the answering machine from our neighbor behind us with estimates on repairing the fencing, gate, and mowing the fields. So he is making progress getting PK ready to sell.
It still hurts to leave it as I really do like it but I don't think I can move forward completely till I am moved out of it and not back and forth twice a day as I am right now.
Hoping to hear back from the second moving company today with an estimate, then pick one and see how soon they can get my heavy stuff moved.
This coming Monday would have been David & I's 6 year anniversary so I figure that is playing into the emotions a bit as well.
But, I have DECIDED I am going to focus on the positives!
Everyone have a great day!!!!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Heck you NEVER thought you'd survive anything like this, and you're THRIVING (even if you have moments of angst..totally normal).
I have to run, but have one question...why are YOU responsible for cleaning PK??? Let D do at least half, after all he didn't clean out half of it when he left, did he? He LIVED there too, didn't he?
Just thinking of ways to lighten your load...however if this is what you agreed on, then bring on the rubber gloves!
Thank you both for stopping by! My computer and I are now reunited so I should be a bit more regular although I still have a lot to do. Have I mentioned that I don't really like moving???
Shiny I'm not sure about thriving but I am doing better than I ever expected.
I am not responsible for cleaning PK really, I am doing it more as I care about the house still, does that make any sense? There will be plenty left for D to do. No he didn't do anything when he left and basically the past year he has done nothing for the house!
The second moving company called me back Friday morning and gave me a quote for moving my stuff that day or $60 more for next week. I left work early and got it ready to go! Didn't get the water shut off good when unhooked the washer and had water spraying all over the utility room. Left D message couldn't get the water shut off and a while later he did call back, of course we ended up arguing.
He took the bottle of wine in the special case that the wine instructor and his wife gave us for helping with the class. He said they gave it to him. I am so tired I guess I just don't care, I am almost out and I don't want to fight with him. G keeps saying he is a monkey in a cage now and I need to poke him. He means about doing some of the work on PK. I have tried to explain that if I do that, it keeps hard feelings stirred up for me. He says no you just open the door, throw the grenade in and walk off. I said for me it doesn't work that way.
I cleaned the water on the utility room floor up but this morning when I was back at PK some of the carpet had apparently absorbed some water, although when I was there last night I would swear the carpet wasn't wet.
I couldn't stay as I had promised my neighbor, (after all she has done for me!), I would stay with the pest control company while they treated her house this morning and lock up for her after she left for work. Then later this morning I have the guy coming to finish hanging my light fixtures and work on the ceiling fan and light I have not working and hopefully get the dryer hooked up.
I left D vm on both work and cell phone that there was some wet carpet at PK and that I could not stay and work on it this morning. No telling if he will listen to my messages but I didn't know what else to do about it. I'm sure he will be pissed. But I practically begged him in e-mail the first part of this week to help me some with this move, that it is wearing and stressing me out. He never responded and I didn't try to soak the floor, the valves were very hard to turn and I thought I had it off before I unscrewed the hoses.
Very tired today but also very glad this last of the heavy stuff is moved as I was so worried about moving it, especially my desk! Now I need blinds as I will be here more often.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
I have been wondering and decided to post in case anyone here is still in touch with her, does anyone know how Jeannine is doing? I don't remember what part of FL she is in and have been hoping it isn't close to any of the areas being hit by the storms!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Left the shelties at PK all day as I thought the guy was coming to work on stuff and didn't want them underfoot. He didn't show up.
So as I was leaving to go feed and pick up the shelties my neighbor walked over and asked about dinner. So she was going to pick us up subs for dinner while I went after the shelties.
Then we took the shelties all for a walk and I met some neighbors in the back cul de sac. M had already met them, I think she so far has met everyone that has moved into the subdivision!
Tomorrow morning we are meeting for breakfast before she goes to work and then I think I will go to Home Depot to look at blinds.
Hopefully I can talk G into hanging blinds at this house since he did the ones at PK for me.
It is definitely starting to feel much more like home. Especially with my desk and my computer here now!!!!!!!!!!
I am not moving the shelties crates and food over yet as there will be a bunch of workers in the house again on Tuesday. But maybe Tue. evening I may get them moved so the rest of the week we aren't running back and forth.
When I went to PK to get the shells the carpet was smelling so I did find a couple of fans to turn on to try to dry it up a bit.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Left D message couldn't get the water shut off and a while later he did call back, of course we ended up arguing.