Seems like we are at yet another turning point, in our respective personal growth paths, as well as moving our relationship on. Time to move to new board premises too, and this time I'm looking for calmer space for some rest; feeling a little tired from such intense dbing. I want to start on a positive note, and my cainercast for today seems to be as good as any.
Friday, June 11th. Libra. You have every reason to be proud of who you are, where you come from, what you're doing... and where you're going. This applies, even if you're not always entirely sure that you can satisfactorily explain all the above. Occasional uncertainty is nothing to be ashamed of. You also have every reason to expect assistance and support from those around you. You certainly supply plenty of this to others. Why then, be nervous today about asking for what you need, or expressing what you feel? Stand up and boldly request what you're entitled to.
I know what you mean... I too have decided I need a little rest from the dramas and intense effort.
Sometimes it is just a good thing to stand back, rest (sitting on a milestone? ) before resuming the good fight! Just a period of looking to our needs and taking care of ourselves, huh?
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
Briefly, I am 39, H is 41, we are school sweethearts, have been together for 21 years, lived together for 18, married for 10. Last June I noticed changes in H’s behavior, nothing major, just more attention to looks, clothes, unpredictable movements etc
H dropped bomb on October 11th, was having EA with ex-colleague (42 yrs, M with 2 kids). I did all the wrong things, cried, plead to end, to no avail. In fact, EA escalated to PA shortly after. By normal description, affair has been over since March, but phone and email contact continues.
Discovered Michele and DR in February, and have been participating on this board since March. Happy with personal progress, have some queasy moments about R.
Some things have worked really well for me. At the begining of my previous thread, I was struggling to emotionally apply and live the mantras my mind knew to be good for me - to relax, to let NG work through his drama, to get a life. By the end of the thread, largely, I found myself chilled out and reasonably comfortable with letting things ride for a while. This is HUGE for me, a recovering crazymaker
I'm also more accepting of the fact that every now and then, I have an emotional episode, and that the next day, I'm able to muster the strength to boost my spirits and continue the good fight. Journaling has been incredibly helpful. Yesterday was one of the dark cloud days, and I'm not going to sweep it under the carpet. Here is my post about how I felt.
Quote: Journaling Thursday.
Pretty good start to day, easy morning at work, good chat with my boss about next year. I'm lucky I work for a great company and a great manager, lots of creative freedom
NG came over for lunch, then went to a project meeting. Friend had car problem, so mid-afternoon we took off on a rescue mission. Something different. Had light dinner, came home to catch up on emails.
Lately NG has been OK with me sitting next to him just reading my book while he does email, but body language last night was negative, so I stayed over on my couch. Later, I just went over for a cuddle and saw his LONG email to OW.
Just had to take off on my own, and have a weep. NG told me 6 weeks ago he was ending it, and there will be NO MORE CONTACT. Who is this weak man, who cannot keep his word? What has he done with my husband? Admittedly there were no endearments etc, but still, to take the time and effort to express anger an frustration at how she is running her life - that means the feelings are not being allowed to fade away.
Sometime when I feel ready, I'll need to dwell on the man NG has become, and whether I actually like this person. But this too could be a transitional stage, so I guess any analysis now may be premature Patience, patience, patience
) before resuming the good fight! Just a period of looking to our needs and taking care of ourselves, huh?
This pause is not at all giving up, but stopping for a while to re-group. 
Patience, patience, patience
