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I like the steakhouse.

Mmmm, steak.

I cooked up a fantastic steak dinner last night. Oh, soooo good.

I also did this week. My sons raved - and I luxuriated.

Hi Rock, I've been off forum for a while but it is joyous to pop on tonight and read how well you sound. The content of your last few pages on here feel really different than the messages earlier this year / last year. It sounds like you're detaching, getting your life back & re-finding you. Hopefully it feels as good as it sounds. Hi 👋

Thank you MA it’s great to hear from you.

As it turns out, yes I am doing very well, while also just recently navigating some intensity from W. She has let me know she is really not doing well over these last couple weeks. I have continued on my path while supporting our kids to connect with her to the degree that they are able to/want to.

Tomorrow I head back into the mountains with my youngest 2.

I am taking time for quiet reflection in the still of the early morning here in the mountains with youngest 2 again. A place I love to be either just on my own, with friends or with my kids and community. We have been having all kinds of winter weather this early season so far. Heavy snowfall. High winds. Heavy rainfall. Yesterday for awhile we were inside a vigorously shaken snow globe - snowflakes the size of a child’s hand dancing in every direction to one of grok’s musical selections. In the lead up to this winter, youngest daughter made it clear to me that this is her favorite thing to do with me.

We go out and play in the winter wonder and enjoy the cozy warm cabin, each other, movies, singing, conversation, games and delicious food and drink.

Youngest D’s BF took me to breakfast this week and asked for my blessing to marry my D. He will propose soon upon our return into town. This is wonderful and joyous and I am so thrilled. D has been bonding in a special way over this time with him, and also with her loved and cherished family and close friends. She is ready and loves him.

I respect BF’s maturity and integrity and love for my daughter and I am unreservedly giving my blessing.

Congratulations!

Wonderful news!

A blessed holiday season to you and your’s Rock.

Although I shouldn't be, I'm always a little surprised and touched ... that people are reading my story and listening to the music. After all, what did I do when I landed here? ... read the threads of those posting at the time ... including yours Rock. Thanks, for writing your story and for tuning in to mine.


A blessed event! Here is one for the two of them. A little country type grooving...

Be alive - Henrik

I was just young and reckless
Walkin' with no direction
'Til you changed my perspective
In search for somethin' better
I wandered through the desert
You were my buried treasure

And on that day my whole world changed

When I looked into your eyes
It was right then I realized
This is how it feels to be alive (Be alive)

No clue where I was goin'
You set this heart in motion (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh)
You were the lyric missin'
But now you got mе singin' (Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh)

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This has been a wonderful Christmas highlighted by joyful lunches, parties and toasts and dancing and delightful carrying on with families and friends celebrating D’s engagement in the days leading up to Christmas.

During our mountain trips earlier this month, D sparked some discussion about how Christmas would look, voicing that she didn’t know what to do about expectations and hopes to have everyone all together. We had good conversations touching on joys and griefs and personal choice. I emphasized my desire to celebrate together with all of our kids. I was aware that everyone including me was invited over to the kids maternal GM’s for Christmas Day brunch with their mom. I told D that I had not decided whether I would attend the brunch and explained that I wasn’t sure that I wanted to be there with her M.

We had a blast on Christmas Eve over here with both S’s, eldest S’s girlfriend, D and her fiancé spending the evening together with me.

In the end, I made the decision on Christmas morning to go to the brunch. I was patient with myself to make my decision when I was ready to. I certainly had some personal discomfort but was friendly and a gentleman. D, her mom and GM were gracious hosts. W was very warm and gave me a big hug,thanked me for coming and said she loved being with her family.

The kids and I had Christmas dinner later on together with my family and that was very enjoyable.

And so I carry on. Having brunch together on Christmas went well, I went through discomfort in coming to the decision to go, more discomfort during our time all together and then still more discomfort after. I have been processing feelings since and had a dream W asked in front of the family to move back home.

Each day since Christmas I have gone for a run, lifted weights and taken a sauna. Got together with friends Friday afternoon then got dressed up and went to a festive dance that night.

Youngest S spent part of yesterday with his mom. I plan to go to a steakhouse this week and treat myself.