I would go a few nights a week if I had someone watch my D10. I also have difficulty sleeping. When I do yoga, I sleep WELL. Not only that, it makes me feel good about my body. I have some body issues too. But when my body FEELS strong and healthy, I appreciate more how it looks. I have even, (embarrassingly enough) cried in a yoga class. Well, teared, not cried. I am able to release some really pent up emotions.
Just keep going!
And I will tell you, and do what you will with it, when I stop trying to work so hard on my "open sore" issues and take a break from the "fixing". It's usually just the break I need. Trying to always better ourselves gets exhausting, and sometimes we need to stop and appreciate ourselves in the moment.
I so, so get this. I used to **hate** the thought of exercise. I would even actively go out of my way to avoid it, and I was kinda entrenched in that viewpoint and proud of that too.
I did walk a bit. And I thought that say, walking back from town to my flat (about 45 minutes) was a big walk. I would do it, for sure, but I thought of it as a bit f a trek.
I suppose I did like *some* things, like dancing, yoga...and I didn't think of them as exercise.
Now? I think I'm in the mindset where I'll try most things. I don't know how that's happened. Maybe it's something to do with not caring if I'm 'good' at it or not. I used to be a bit of a perfectionist, really heavy on the self judgement and self criticism.
Don't get me wrong, it's very much baby steps and I like doing things very gradually as I don't feel that I have that much confidence in my own physicality (yet). Like I've been out cycling a couple of times now and am only just starting to get into an almost decent sitting position on a bike (I get stressed out if I'm sitting in the saddle and I also can't put my feet on the ground as well). And I'll go a slightly longer running route if it means avoiding running past building sites or groups of workmen, etc. So, baby steps...yes.
Maybe it's been this whole D process that has helped this, or gifted me this
On BD H52, W50 T27, M26 S21, D23 BD-9-Mar-16 D-15-Jan-18 Final-19-Apr-18 I am a storyteller. The story may do you no good. But a story is never for the listener. It is always for the one who tells
Just checking in, sweet Lady V! It's been a busy week leading up to vacation so I've been on and off but wanted to be sure to pop in and say hello.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
I haven't checked in lately because I am dealing with an issue that isn't resolved. Don't be concerned it isn't me, I am fine. A close friend in my DV group has been seriously assaulted by her ex (can't give details as this would identify her and put the group at risk).
She has two kids affected that we are trying to find a foster home placement approval. It's taking a lot of my time and I am visiting my friend daily in hospital.
Please pray for K and her children.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
Keeping your friend and family in my thoughts and prayers.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
