OwnIt hasn't been on the forum for a while and I do not know "The Picnic Story". Hopefully, someone else does. You may want to pose your question to Cadet, he is the moderator for the Newcomers' Forum and you may be able to catch him there quicker than here.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.