And watched when she was done to go out, never even put on perfume, just threw on a loose jeans and top. She said that I must check tracker if I want to know where she is, I said do you know what thats gonna do - she said - you gonna f-ck yourself up hey... So she said she'll SMS me when she gets where she's going. Small solace really.
But i'm tired after a long day. Gonna go sleep early and hopefully stay that way.
When she gets back, should i push her away or let her hold me? I'm inclined to let her hold me in bed, after pushing her away whole day.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
F! i check tracker, she said that she was going to let me know when at place and never got SMS, and she's been at OM2s place for the past 30 minutes. Now my mind is racing...
I'm laughing about it, cos that just means that I need to control my emotions even more. i can do this!
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
@dream and darknes - are you of the opinion that I should still not be giving off to my WW?
Her one non-wayward friend said that my WW complained to her that I did not want to give off. There is no way that she could have thought that I was going to call that friend, perhaps...
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
oh, and I plan on snooping on her phone during the night. I will not react, I will just do it so that I am informed. I've been through this before and can do it. I must believe.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
She's out at some other dude's house and you're considering giving her affection/attention when she gets home???????????? Especially when this is a dude that we all know wants to have sex with her.... it's not a long-life innocent friendship. It's an emotional affair headed to become physical.
Unless you WANT to be 2nd to OM, then by all means, continue to let her have cake and eat it to. Otherwise, let her be!! Focus on you!
What does it matter what is on her phone? She's WITH HIM RIGHT NOW!!
You cant control your feelings right now. What you can do is stop letting your feelings control your actions. Once you do that, your feelings will naturally change.
It's like trying a new food. The first time you may not like it. But eventually, after you keep eating it, you can tolerate/enjoy it.
Your feelings will change naturally. But your actions should be detached from those feelings.
I love you two! OK, it's 2am. I did a great job of sleeping till now. Tummy hungry so going to fill it then back to sleep.
Just got unsolicited TM to state that she's still gonna be partying.
Guess that I can't even give her "cake" for her bday. Lol
As for feelings controlling actions, I get that too. I feel upset, I feel used, I feel like crap, I feel like crying, I am crying. I am going to eat, and then sleep.
I was thinking bout the snooping thing too, let me ride it out. There will be a time for snooping.
Just cos things are going right, doesn't mean that they were always wrong.
