All i can say is too back yourself , you cant keep doing the on off thing thats not how i view a committed relationship Theres a reason you keep getting the bomb drop maybe she wants out but can pull the trigger? Who knows?
At the moment theres still emotions and feelings attached i understand ive had the on off thing myself numerous times. You need to look out for you and the kids, step back and take time.
Me: 45 w:45
M:6yrs T:9 Separated aug 15 no contact dec 15 come back july 16 I filed for closure aug 16
SG, I just took the time to read through all of your threads and it looks like you're doing everything you can to try and save your M. I give you all the credit in the world for making it this long.
I also had the pleasure of dealing with a verbally abusive WW so I can relate to your situation very well. You don't deserve to be treated that way and I'm glad that light bulb finally went off and you told her so.
The two things that helped me when I got to the point you're at now, was letting go of the fear of losing her and I stopped worrying about the unknown. Once I did those things life became enjoyable again. Nobody can predict what the future holds so you have to take it as it comes. Just keep working on yourself to become the man you want to be for yourself and the father you want to be for your boys. They're going to need you now.
There is a difference between knowing the path & walking the path. – Morpheus
