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What a terrible, bad, no good, awful day you've had SadHub. Your W seems to have completely lost her composure. You did just fine, though, not letting her get you as angry as she plainly wanted you to be, and modeling good behavior. I'm sending you and your family every bit of strength I can tonight.

I hope that the coming week gives you the break you so clearly need and deserve.

SadHub,

I hope the coming week brings you a little peace my friend. Hang in there brother.

Thank you GWH and Phoebe.

I am a little put back together this evening. Roughest day so far, but after D17 went with WAW for a few hours, I went to pick her up form her mothers place. And wow! I see that the WAW has purchased all new stuff, and who knows where all the stuff that she took from here is. Just crazy that she made a such big deal about all the stuff and somehow she has had help buying all new stuff. Oh well.

D17 was sad when I picked her up and she said it was tough sitting in a house where the whole family should be, not separated. I let her share her frustration and just listened.

After she said she was going to be okay now, I asked if we could go out to eat and just talk about happy stuff, and we did.

We got home and wanted to just do something light and fun. I jumped on to Skype with my father for a few as my mom is going in for some testing that has some concerns in our family, and so D17 could say hi.
D17 was cleaning up some stuff in the other room when I heard her sobbing. I went out and she had these flowers that her mom had given her little sister. It was a tough moment. The triggers for her are gonna be as tuff as they are for me.

Well we are gonna try and watch something funny and then head to sleep and try again tomorrow.

Thank you all for your prayers and keeping tabs on me. I appreciate this group a ton. it is the support group that has really helped me out.

Sleep tight everyone.

Now is the time to take extreme care of you and your beautiful daughters.

Keep yourself to gentleness, kindness and love.

Have a gentle break and extreme kindness.

Peace

V

Checking in on you this morning, SadHub, hoping that you're getting a little calm after the storm.

((SadHub and family))

Thank you V and Phoebe for the support and check in.

Today has been a difficult one, but not externally so much as internally. I just can not seem to get a good nights sleep and then I woke up with horrible anxiety.
It was so bad I called out from work because I could not stop shaking and the negative mind vacuum was horrible. I tried to rest/sleep Some pretty dark thought patterns kept rolling through. I have got to get a handle on this so that I can function and focus.

D17 called from school at about noon and that snapped me out of it, although I could tell she was having a tough day. I think I cheered her up with some silly talk.
Then I called parents as mom had an appointment for a lump. They have to go back Friday for a biopsy, so the folks are a bit stressed.

Anyway, I go get my girls in a bit so I am trying to work up some energy to enjoy them and keep the mood light with all this going on.

Working to keep it together so I can GAL and make some progress.

That is an extra stressor, mom and her lump, my prayers are with you and mom on it.

It will take 4 or 5 days for your body to settle. Extreme care and lots of hugs with your Ds.

I haven't told you how much I am an admirer of D17. Let me say so now.

You are in my prayers, continuing with rainbow strength.

I did mention lots of hugs with Ds didn't I?

V

Thank you V! The prayers for my mom are greatly appreciated at this time.

My D17 is a wonderful young lady and I love hearing that she has another admirer.

So for today being such a huge challenge for me, tonight has been an absolute dream. The time with my girls was just the medicine I needed and I feel 1000 times better. No shakes, the mind is focused on positive forward moving ideas and plans and both of my girls have had smiles all evening.

We played some "Let's dance" which was a riot. And the highlight of my night was as I was getting my D5 ready for bed, she said, "Daddy, you are the best dad ever." Oh how that is the best medicine for the soul. I am in an apartment with almost nothing in it as it was taken by WAW, and yet this has been one of the best nights I have had in a long time empty apartment and all.

Now we are off to bed and I pray that I can have a sound solid sleep and maybe I can wake up with hope (instead of the dread)

I know it's a roller coaster ride, but maybe I can use tonight to launch me onto more ups than downs. Well, at least I know time with my babies can lift my spirits.

I'm really glad to hear that you had a good night, SadHub. You deserved it!

Thank you Phoebe!

You have been a wonderful support as I go through this.