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Oh, and btw last evening I clicked my heels together and said three times, there's no place like home... it didn't help.

I'm back to thinking about buses. That was more fun.

That is so sweet. People that have never met you and yet they are willing to go out of their way for you. Almost restores my faith in humanity!

Sorry you got rained on today. It is pretty much metaphoric of our lives right now, huh? I am still bound and determined I will get my run in... Wish me some dryer weather!

I don't care so much about getting wet myself, but the dogs getting wet is a pain in the as$, especially since i gave one of the white ones a bath day before yesterday and now she's just dirty again.
And yes, very symbolic. I'm just hoping that that means after the rain comes the sun. But it's been a very long dreary life since d-day. I hope he's second guessing himself...

Just so you know Sparkls, its sunny blue skies here today, I am sending them your way. Just hang tight until they get there.

Stay strong Sparkls. You can do this. Moving and residency are daunting and anxiety provoking all by themself. You have that covered and you're dealing with the strong emotions associated with your sitch. That is A LOT!!!! But you're doing it. Keep going. One step at a time and you'll soon find you self where you belong. Vaya con dios.

The sun did come out a little. But it supposed to be rainy for the next too days too. It never ends.

I'm just...numb again today.
I can't see a path that leads to him coming home. But consciously I know that I'm not working with complete information. But it just feels like without kids, with all the other big changes coming, with the OW still involved, its just strike after strike that leads to him just walking away and never coming back.
Sigh.

^^^ Miiiiiind readingggggg

Just because you can't logically see a way for him come back doesn't mean he won't.

I'm living proof of this. When W left me the first time, I felt exactly like you do. I went one month NC before I heard a peep from her. And her first peep was about grabbing the rest of her things.

Long story short, I got her back! But then lost her again

It's not so much mind reading as trying to read the future.
But I do know H incredibly well and he's stubborn and he catastrophizes everything and everything is black and white.
And his black and white right now is that it won't work between us. That he's going to move to Colorado.

I just have to make it through the next 2 weeks and then I'm going to try and go back to CO myself and see my family, get out of PA.
Maybe I'll find some hope there. Cause here, it's just stagnant air of hopelessness.

Wow. He just defriended me on Xbox.
WTF is even going on anymore.

Sparkles,

Sorry - I know that has to hurt because that was an activity you did together. Remember to keep up the NC - just in case he is doing that on purpose. To see if he gets a reaction from you. Just like with the games. Are you ok?