Wow you are right about putting things in perspective. Everyone of us should be getting out there and enjoying things. You have a great attitude and you are a big help on these boards.
I admire your strength and how you are putting things into perspective. Your post shows what we all knew all along that you are a very wise man, strong, ready to enjoy life until you decide when it's over. You are an example of courage, Grace and dignity.
A trip to England sounds very good :-). Thinking and praying for you mon amour
JujuB I have been to Europe five times. Four times I was involved in shooting competitions and two years ago my wife and S13 and I toured several countries in Europe. I have been to England twice. I will go again to see ma jolie Rouky! It is funny how suddenly certain things aren't that important any more. The doctors were very confident in my treatment but there are always exceptions. Hopefully this is nothing and I will not have to face any more chemo or radiation. I am certain that I would prefer surgery to more chemo/radiation. While it su(%s to have to go through this alone I have learned the hard way that my STBXW was not cut out for dealing with these issues and was anything but a caregiver.
So Rouky I forge ahead with strength borrowed from you and a determination to see my children grow and to continue to be an influence on them that I think they have come to appreciate. There is much that only I can teach them and I will be around to do it. We are all blessed by God to live in a day where these issues are not a death sentence and while brutal the treatments are very effective. Thank you to everyone for their love and support and keep praying for me!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Hello Rouly my love! I am doing well. I started to type quite well but that would be a stretch. It's funny how my latest health scare has taken my mind almost completely off of STBXW. I thought that I would hear from the radiologist today but did not. I can only hope that it is a good sign. It's very nerve wracking to sit here and wait for such a significant response. Either there is nothing to worry about and I continue to heal or I am back for more treatment. I have learned to call this living in cancer time. Every minute feels like an hour and every hour feels like a day. The biggest thing is that I do not want more chemo/radiation.
I know you didn't ask Rouky but since you are my best friend I will tell you about my STBXW. She has lost her mind! She is very angry and her communication is very hateful. She looks awfully silly from here now that I am putting things in perspective. I'm not sure why I ever cared that she left. I will be better off if I never even get a date with another woman the rest of my life. It just all feels so stupid and childlike at this point.
One of my sons and his girlfriend are coming to see me this weekend and I am very excited. I love his fiance' as if she were my own child. We are very close and my heart always lifts when the two of them are here. I have recently had a few calls inquiring of my returning to my artistry and I am starting to feel motivated to start working again. I have a ton of work lined up and need to get back into the swing of things. I can make so much more money doing that than I can at my job but the job provides insurance. My energy level is improving and my strength continues to improve.
Pleas keep me in your prayers and I will for you as well!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Hey there, so good to hear from you. TBH I'm more interested in how you are, feel than what your wife does. From my point of you, she's a big fool and I'd dream to have someone like you in my life as my partner.
I know Rouky you are special! I hope we meet someday. I can see what a fool your husband is from here as well. I just wish that I could make things better for you. I am going to be OK but I feel like I am going to face more treatment. The doctor called today but I was out of service so didn't hear it ring. He didn't leave a message so I thinks it's bad news. I tried to call them back but couldn't get anyone. Strangely I am at peace today. I know that God is with me and that everything will be OK. I feel really good and I am getting back into shape so maybe that's an indicator too. Last time I was diagnosed I was losing weight no matter how much I ate. Now I am gaining a little at a time. You have been a giver of life to me Rouky and it is so regretful that your husband is willing to walk away from you. His loss will be a wonderful gift to one of us guys though. How is your family? I think about them every day and I pray for them as well as you. This is just one of those times when all we can do is pray. I do hope that you have someone in your life that brings you comfort. I am sure your children bring you great pleasure! My son is coming home from college for the weekend and is bringing his fiance' I so love being with them and the time always goes too fast. My wife hated when my children would come home so that pressure is off of me forever. We can just be ourselves and enjoy being together. My son is very intelligent and it is so fun to listen to him. It makes me proud to see him working through the clutter of life and our education system and finding truth where it lies! He like me is a true abstract thinker and we are very rare. A lot of universities here pride themselves on teaching abstract thought but I believe that it is mostly born in ones DNA.
I love to say Rouky because it brings me such peace and happiness. I was thinking of you when gathering sap from the Maple trees today. I'm going to make you those awful waffles someday! Peace to you Rouky and I hope your week is going well and that you have something amazing planned for the weekend!
Bonsoir ma cherie!
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
Rouky mi amor I am doing well. The spring is returning to my step and I can see a bright light at the end of the tunnel. I have cute girls showing interest in me and that helps a ton. None of them are so cute or appealing as my Rouky though. Getting a few things done on the divorce front and maybe that is moving forward. I am off to see my therapist so maybe when I get back home I will have a different perspective. I feel like I am ready to proceed without the therapist for now but who knows? She told me from the beginning that her job was to get me to where I didn't need her. I also recognize that I have to do most of this on my own. For certain there will many tough days ahead and I pray that I will look like a man on the witness stand. I just want there to be fairness in the judges decision. I feel really good physically and I look fantastic. My color is more like it used to be and I have a very athletic build to me now. I will continue the work in the gym to first be fit and second to look my best. I already look as good as any fifty year old man and I attract plenty of attention. Still not ready to have a relationship and probably not ready to date but I'm leaving open the option of going out with my Rouky! Perhaps we will share a tear and a beer. You are right that tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow will be a much better day for us because we live in the truth and will not compromise going forward. We know exactly what we are looking for now. So lets finish the week strong and do a little GAL this weekend. Not sure what to do as I will have S13 and he may have something to do. Thinking of you always mi amor! Mark
M:53 W:47 M:15 years. S:18 S's: 30 & 28 from previous marriage. BD: 3/14 Divorced January 17.
I'm so pleased to read your up beat post Shotgun. You really rock and are my rock when I'm down. I think your IC is really good and I'm not surprised that you are getting so much attention.
TBH I feel slightly jealous that one of theses nice ladies will get to taste your awful waffle before me :-)! You are doing so well and I'm proud of you. Did you get any more results from doc?
