Your weekend with your children sounds lovely Zues! They are so lucky to have a Dad who spends time doing things with them and talking to them about their feelings.
The conversation with D about OM must have been so painfully hard. I can't imagine having to have that conversation. I don't know how WAS justify OM/OW with their kids. Just awful.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.