Have an annoying cold and am so tired I just turned on the tv for my D. It's extremely rare I give her tv time, but I still feel a little guilty. Oh well....
Sorry to hear you feel unwell. Your portable incubator will undoubtedly bring you a few more germs before she grows up, it's all part of being a parent.
She'll enjoy the tv and miss her mum, she'll be fine while you recuperate.
It might be worth asking the question about LL's again and ask what they've found works and what doesn't; doesn't the book have any guidance in it?
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
I haven't gotten my hands on the book yet. Guess I'll do that next week.
Not sure how I'm feeling at the moment. We spent the day together again. It was ok. Maybe that's why it leaves me feeling empty. It was ok, but nothing has changed. It was almost easier when there was tension, then I could hold on to that. He texted me last night. not just about D. We also joked a little back and forth. It was friendly. I guess that's good. I just have to be patient.
I'm starting to feel anxiety about moving in January. I like the kind of apartment I'm in now, but I won't even come close to that again.
I'm also so so sad that this will eventually force me to leave the US. I can't fathom going back to Europe. That's almost the worst part in all this. Being uprooted against my will.
He's making more of an effort to be friends with me. He's texting me about stuff that doesn't have anything to do with D. Yesterday it was about the new boots he bought. Two days ago he wanted me to text him to test out his new phone. I don't mind but I wondered why he didn't text OW.
He is potentially reacting to how you have been behaving recently. To find out whether this is true, keep on being independent and getting on with your life. If the encouraging behaviour continues, keep on doing what you are doing...
It is imperative that you do not allow him to take back control by starting to watch or analyse what he is doing, the minute he sees you looking at him, he'll run off in the other direction.
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
I think he's just more comfortable around me, because I told him, when we were in therapy, that he shouldn't feel guilty, I'm seeing this as an opportunity to grow and become a better person etc etc.
If you are getting good results to bring you closer to your goals then continue what you are doing. If he is not making baby steps towards your goals, experiment and monitor the results.
It sounds like things are going smoothly for now. And you sound like mentally you are in a good spot, so you dont have to worry so much about doing it exactly right or exactly wrong. I think trying to rush it may be the only thing that could hurt you right now.
You are doing great!
Me: 42 H: 45 M: 18 yrs T: 20 yrs D: 17 D: 15 S: 12 I kicked him out 8/21/15 I will DB until March 21st 2017, that is it!
I think you're doing great, Gmum! I truly envy your PMA. I get a lot of inspiration just reading through your thread. I'm working on getting there, too.
