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I don't post from my phone hardly ever, just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and fired of a prayer

HeavyD, my job (and my brower's occasional difficulty with this site) has had me behind on everyone's situations, including yours. This thread resonated with me, especially the "let's be friends" part. The best thing I did was give that firm speech to my WW last week about how friends don't treat each other the way she is treating me, then seeing her face crumple into a mess of guilt and angst. What she doesn't know is that I will always be her friend, even if that friendship can only reach her through prayers from afar.

I know this doesn't help you, but seeing you a good nine months ahead of me in this journey helps me think about where my footsteps ought to take me. Perhaps you can take some comfort in knowing that you are being a great help to me in all this, whether you are being strong or feeling completely lost. I see the tough road ahead, and I truly admire your continued decision to stand.

The birthday party today will be a challenge, but one I know you can meet with compassion, courage, grace, and appropriate detachment. You really are doing better than you give yourself credit for. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way today, and happy birthday to your boy!

Heavy- I hope you have a great day with your son. Make it a great day for him! If you focus on him nothing else will matter

Update from Party for s10

My job for the party was gift bags and ballons. I preordered the balloons picked them, walked them in at 9:30 and they all popped on a tree. Great. But, I just turned around, drove up to the party place and got 10 more. No one was the wiser.

When I get there the second time with ballons, W and kids and her possee were there. Her possee are her two friends, and weren't on the guest list. These used to be our friends, but now they are just hers. She did not mention they would be there. She insulates herself very well from having to deal with me one on one. Oh well, at least it wasn't the AP. I said hello and just started setting up my stuff and then the party guests arrived. I didn't say very much to either friend but was polite.

I greeted people, chatted, got them their put put stuff, poured ice water, took photo's, handed out bags, etc... I did not interact with W at all and focused on my kids and other parents. Period.
My S10 and D6 had a great time and played with all of their friends!

At the end, I asked if I could load up presents into W's car and she said OK and gave me the keys. I loaded them up. S10 wants me to come over to the apartment to help open his presents. W looked pained at that thought. I just said "whatever you want to do is fine" and hugged and kissed my kids. I got into my car and drove home.

In the car, I wept on the way home, but it was OK, no one could see me. I just had to get the emotion out.

This is hard stuff folks but it is what it is.

Thank you everyone for the good wishes and love, I felt them.

HeavyD

Thank you CaliGuy. You are a great suport for me. I appreciate all that you do.

Thank you PT - I did just that - focused on S10! The day was all about him!

Thanks Dif

Prayers are going back at you. I hope you have a good day. I so much apprecite the good words.

Thanks V - I did just that!

Thank you - I felt it!

Enjoy the party & your kid. I hope it goes well, and I'm confident you will handle it well.