Guys, I have no intention of going back to just surviving. Promise. It is all full steam ahead from here on out.
Promise. What I need now, more than ever, is some faith that I got this. I'm sure I will hear a lot of the opposite in Ohio. And, the last thing I need right now is to add getting fired to my repertoire.
I'm not sure the fullness of our misery here has been conveyed. D12 and I are past done. I've been under a microscope for about a year now.
40 issues.
I'm ready to enjoy life and not just push through the sludge. Getting divorced is a part of letting go.
Somehow I recreated my marriage in this job... Or, my marriage followed me, hunted me down like an animal... Whatever the truth... I've made it this far, but life will be easier--one-way-or-another--from here on out. Done just surviving.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
No, you didn't recreate your marriage in this job. The marriage followed you, right along w/all of the baggage associated w/it, i.e., lawyers, house settlement, missing drawers, tools, the child being investigated for "possible sexual misconduct", etc. All of this has been nipping at your heals since you moved. It's now time to clean out those bags and get rid of this stuff. The divorce should clean up some of the baggage for you. Once the dust settles, you'll be able to see a bit clearer, mind will be more focused on what needs to be done and yes, the weight on your shoulders should lift quite a bit.
Last year, you were desperate to live where you living and wanted a fresh start. Now, it sounds like it might be something similar. Heather, learn from some of the mistakes you made when moving/accepting positions. Thoroughly do your homework this time around to ensure that you find a place to live that will be within your means, i.e., do not count on someone else bringing in the bacon as well as yourself. Also, you will need to think about what you are going to do for transportation as your lease on your vehicle is almost up.
Also, at some point, a discussion will need to be made concerning your daughter moving even further away. Will your h approve of this? How will visitation be handled?
For now, focus on your job and getting the divorce finished up. Then, the mission of actually looking for another position can be done w/o the baggage of the marriage/divorce hanging over your head.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Why as this been so hard? Do you want me to be honest? If so, here's my take:
Because you have been afraid to move forward, you have been kicking and screaming all the way to court to end your marriage and you procrastinate, hence things pile up and then you become overwhelmed with everything that has to be done in a very short time period because of this.
Heather, life is has hard as you make it. You have to find a way to change how you deal w/things. I know it's difficult to change the way you look at things that come your way, but until you start taking care of things, one by one, as they come into your sights, you will continue to have things pile up and then you become overwhelmed and then you panic thinking that everything has to be taken care of at the 11th hour. When sometime comes into your view, deal w/it and then you don't have to think about it again.
I think that when you learn to deal w/things head on and not allowing them to pile up, your life will get easier and you can finally breathe and live your life in a normal fashion.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Good luck and travel safely. Do you have all of your paperwork packed and ready to go? If not, put those papers in your suitcase this evening so that you don't forget them. Think positive and I do hope that everything turns out okay.
Don't forget to breathe when things get tough.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Printed craigslist items. Asked my friends about boat motors. I'm not picking them up, but I will tell the court Matt has until Subday evening to get them. They are old neighbors and mutual friends. I may do the same with the tool boxes.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
Have the names and addresses printed on a sheet of paper to present to the court and Matt. That way, there are no excuses from the peanut gallery that he doesn't have the info. It's called protecting thy self.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
