The weekend was very profound. I had a taste of what life for me could really be like.
Which leads me to my next point which is that I won't be around here for a while. I'll drop in every now and again but in reality I'm done with this.
My thinking? Someone asked me in the wee small hours of Sunday what makes NDY happy and do you know what? I couldn't answer.
To describe it I said imagine your whole life is written on a chalkboard. And on BD someone comes along and wipes the whole lot off. You can still see marks where your old life used to be but really it's gone. Consigned to history.
So now it's time to go figure out what to put on that board instead.
The other thing that happened that made me feel this way is that the WW dropped of S10 yesterday, and I felt nothing.
So yea, I don't want to save this M any more. For me it's over and I'm going off to do something else.
Good luck to you all and I hope it works out for you.
Peace
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
Good luck. Suspects that now WW starts changing course & eventually becomes the pursuer of our NDY?
Sounds like you are in a healthy place & seizing the opportunity to be fully alive.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15
I know how you feel mate. I've been real scarce around here. My blackboard was wiped clean. In retrospect it is not really surprising that I can't even resurrect the rubbed out parts of what Py liked doing. one because there wasn't really time for anything, and what was left was Py did husband/father things when there was.
reinvention time!
Also, like you, I am done with this M. "IF" a NEW R ever strikes up - thats another story.
be happy my friend.
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
So it's been a few weeks since I've been here in earnest. I've came back for one specific reason. It would appear that my WW wants to talk. She won't specify what it is she needs to talk about but it has to be face to face. All very strange.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
Have you agreed. I'm sure you weren't over enthusiastic, if you have.
Keep us up to date.
Glad you have been well enough to not need to be here as much.
Best of luck
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together
I have the feeling I'm not going to like what she has to say. I txt her back to say that if it's bad news I'd rather know now rather than later, and she agreed and intends to email me.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.