Just thought I'd shock the hell out of all ya' all! Someone stopped by my IM to ask how things are goin'...well they are goin'....take care! Imiss you, Z, Hacker, Iver, Ellie, Floyd, WW and a ton of others as well...Single life can be lonely, especially around the holidays.
Hope everyone is enjoying the holidays and I hope Santa is good to you this year.
Lot's of things going on at home. Kids, parents, family visiting for the holidays. We'll have a full house for a couple of days. I'm looking forward to Christmas.
R isn't much different. W and I are "friends", no fireworks, we just hang out a lot and seem to have a good time most of the time. This doesn't seem to phase her, but it bugs the heck out of me. I've always had a problem with the whole "act as if" thing.
As a result, the C sessions have gotten somewhat intense. C thinks I should be thrilled with what's happening. Of course she's only been around for a couple of months. I told her to try it for three or four years and see how upbeat she can be! Probably not a good idea to be argumentative with the therapist, but I'll get over it. Sometimes I just get tired of people telling me to just hang in there.
Anyway, going to try to focus on the holidays and the kids for now. We'll probably pick up the debate after New Year since I'm pretty sure we won't have some kind of breakthrough before that.
As always though, other than the R being stuck in neutral, things are pretty good. Did I mention I can't wait for the kids to get here? And of course, the bowl games are starting.
Well, Christmas went off pretty well. The kids, W, parents, sister and SIL all came in for the holidays. Most are still hanging out at the house. (D already had to go back to Texas because of her job.)
I had to come in to work for a few hours and have spent most of the time reading the bb. Not really much going on here.
It hit me that this is the third Christmas I've been here and it's really the first decent holiday we've had together since the sh** hit the fan Thanksgiving of 2001 when she told me she was leaving. Been an ugly couple of years.
A lot of progress...and a lot of water under the bridge in '02 and '03. She moved out, moved back in a year ago, we moved last summer. In a lot of ways we've both mellowed and are getting along OK. But making it that last 10 yards to where we both feel like we've made it through has been tough. I guess we're both pretty good at pushing buttons and have a hard time getting over the past. But we're still here and I think we might be getting close.
I've met some really great people on this bb and y'all have helped in so many ways. I hope you are enjoying the holidays, didn't get too bogged down in the snow and cold, and all of us can look forward to a peaceful and rewarding year to come.
