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Hey look this stuff doesn't really rock my world like it would have in the past, it just is.
Mostly it just keeps you guys up to speed, but it makes me sad that yes s17 is being enabled by xh by his mates and h cousin. I know they all mean well.

Funny tho how things just keep cropping up, h was a bully. Plain and simple.

The past week a bunch of bullies have come from under the wood work, another today tryed to make me accept responsibility for something which was out of my control.

Plenty would have told him fire truck off!

I was pleased I did not say sorry I caused this, I did not say I could fix it, nor did take his rubbish and spew. I was simply nice to the point and drew a line for him saying I passed you information what you did was up to to you.

You made a decision based on what you saw not me, I helped you out and went that extra mile. I stated I what felt was right and stated I felt I had done what I felt was the right thing by him at the time.

But boo ho I didn't validate how he felt. Which I could have. The thing I can I improve on a bonus which stood out to me like a sore thumb.

The thing I did well on in a very calm very direct assertive way without using a single profanity was not take his baggage on.

Didn't hurt that he had to look at a hawt dress, 3 inch heels and a much slimmer gg walking away either.

Wow, so I fluffed up the diet and food choices lately but boy I've learned to hold my ground without abuse and without becoming a door mat!

Claps loudly and bows a deep satisfied bow.
I have learnt something finally and I feel very good, what is they say about the crapola before the break thru?

Does a very happy dance.

Definitely shows your getting your priorities in the right order. You did well with all of that.

be careful dancing in those heels though......

The food is a little more urgent, just not important like the r skills.

If I can't get my work shirts closed then I will be arrested for flashing.

well its certainly another topic of conversation for people.

Edz might need another cold shower though.

This is where my inherent lack of concern for myself kicks in, I mostly cant be bothered to eat - though given i'm about 15% lighter than I was pre BD and there werent that much of me to begin with i maybe should start eating more

Poor edz, he's gunna need a lie down trust me!

Pssst he's got advice that will make sure he needs a lie down. Wow, I'm bouncy today.
Seems success does breed success.

Great post, Gg! I love the visual of you taking a "deep satisfied bow" at the end. So what is the break thru you are looking for? You seem to be so strong and having so much fun as a solo-flying woman!

Diverts off to his thread to take a look while the shower cools down....

I wanted not to be drawn into drama, owned by others. I wanted to be more me, in control of what happens and how I react.

A big factor was h manipluated me and often told lies to achieve a desired out come. I need not to own others feelings and take in board things that are my drama. I do not need to fix or give up me to be loved.

I need to learn to set limits and be able to stand up for me. In a nicer way, rather than swing between door mat and bansheeeee.

I think today I did that. I walked on a different path, almost by habit, rather than the auto tunnel.

...puts down loofah for a moment..

Sounds like you're doing a grand job there GG, you'll get the food choices sorted (remember they're that your choices, maybe try the one meal a day thing - works for me and Im truly awful at diets!)

Youve got all your other ducks in a row, marching and performing synchronised swimming so hats off to you (or loofahs)

As for the shirts not closing....ooookay..back to the shower.

It's habbits and displine that gets us where we need to go.

I had adopted plenty that were not good for me, at h request because they worked for him. I know what to do and how to I need to form habbits.

I loved grans cheese less tunel thing, it's true. We fall into the damn tunnel like its a rabbit hole. We cannot see it, until, we think how the he!! What the he!! Just happened.

Then we see it a bit earlier, but to do a u turn just ends messy so we think it's failed.
The we start to think and second guess it, wait tunnel no yes no perhaps....
Then crapola it's a tunnel.

Like today I side stepped something, I did not cheese less tunnel and lie down door mat style nor get into the scarcatsic tunnel nor the screaming loud aggressive tunnel.

I placed the no Blame right out there by refusing to pick it up. I stated not my decision not my Blame, not my problem. I placed ownership back where it belonged.
I short circuited the validation bit but next time.

It will get easier. As it seems atm ever second person wants to test me and push my bounderies. I'm getting tons of practice.