I know its a test. The next thing he said was "So you love me right??" I didnt react I just sat back and thought about the implications behind this and how it made me very upset.
YES this was a test and he will continue to try to break you down as time goes along.
Good job today!
He knows that you normally cave in to him so be prepared for some crazy behavior.
I think the not saying anything answer is the best. When you go to the store for a can of patience also buy a can of STFU!
This whole thing keeps on reinforcing to me that I need to fight for taking care of myself. I want to sit here and blame him for upsetting me but hey I putr myself in this position. I have to get myself out of it. I know exactly what i want and it does not depend on anyones actions but my own. He will not miss the bus this time. Im not being cocky what I mean is the terms have changed the goal to have a family is no longer weighing on me or his actions. I have prayed alot and I have realized that Im only a vessel. Our families are only given to us and we must fight for them. How you say?? By being the best darn me!! Lets get the GAL on!!!
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
This whole thing keeps on reinforcing to me that I need to fight for taking care of myself. I want to sit here and blame him for upsetting me but hey I putr myself in this position. I have to get myself out of it. I know exactly what i want and it does not depend on anyones actions but my own. He will not miss the bus this time. Im not being cocky what I mean is the terms have changed the goal to have a family is no longer weighing on me or his actions. I have prayed alot and I have realized that Im only a vessel. Our families are only given to us and we must fight for them. How you say?? By being the best darn me!! Lets get the GAL on!!!
THIS ^^^^^ is great advice keep reading it and acting on it - IMHO
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
Rereading the DR as of today just giving myself extra cushion for this great NEW YEARS day!! Hopefully the night goes smoothly Im trying to decide will I go to sleep or will I meet up with a girlfriend. Wondering what others will do to stay encouraged for the new year?
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
Lol. I am leaning on going to church with a girlfriend because the more I get into this GAL stage I have to keep myself in check. I can be a big flirt and I can almost any where even at work attract attention. Geesh this is crazy from both sides lol. I have lost a substantial amount of weight...like close to when we met and I have no problem being the light so I have to rail myself in because every woman has a inner sexy...what are are ridiculous spouses thinking?? Geesh...I was talking to my girlfriend earlier as someone walked in to my place of business and of course I charmed him. Lol I guess this is good ego huh?? lol Well Im gonna abe good its just fun to feel like Im not stuck. Im actually free to persue my exH even when I feel like Im chained to this beautiful disaster its a good thing to remember it is my choice
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
I definitely did a very hard thing tonight. My exh called he said he would be working and if the kids went to him that the OW would watch the kids. He said he wanted to give me first opportunity to parent (which is in our agreement). As much as I wanted to say hell no I know that I cant stop this interaction. Im completely devastated that after going on 4 weeks he has someone around my children. We have only been split up for a month and a half. He texted me "So your cool with that?" I gave no response. Their is no reason to respond to something I have no choice in nor does he really care about. Im completely hurt by this whole tragic family dynamic as of now but I know this is what I have to do. I have to put my big girl panties on. Im gonna go to church tonight. I definitely will need too. Im dumb founded by this whole situation. How a man can allow his family to be subject to this kind of display but its beyond me. I have to GAL with all my life because my kids need me. I love them and I want them to have the best possible. A balanced mommy may be all they will have in this world and as much as their father is out of my grips. I have to remember this is only temporary. This to shall pass
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
Im not sure if this is a good spot to be in. I feel like I have completely let go. Im really ok but I feel like their is no evidence at all of my presence in his life I feel like I have completely did a 180 in the sense he has asked me questions and I have not responded. I feel like I have put this whole decision on is plate. He has to make the moves from this point on because Im not going to help him decide whether he wants his family or not. I have no idea if this will help get my family I dont know if Im doing the right thing. This all feels different I have no choice to trust God. Im without feelings Im just standing in faith at this point. I want my family only if its what God would want for me. Because I dont wont to hurt anyone just because I feel that our family should be together. I have completely changed my thinking controlling and trying to protect my family my way is wrong and I have to change at all costs. I dont know what the future holds but I have to trust that my love while flawed can be changed and renewed with help from God.
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
